Movies I Watched in 2011

Here is my movie list:

1. Shrek : Forever After
2. Despicable Me
3. Pan Labyrinth
4. Rabbit Hole
5. Water for the Elephant
6. Harry Potter: Deathly Hallows 1
7. Hitchhiker's Guide to the Universe
8. Pirates of the Carribean: Pt 4
9. Transformers 3
10. Arthur
11. Cedar Rapids
12. Hanna
13. Kung Fu Panda 2
14. Rango
15. xx

Movies

This year, instead of reading books I have made plans to watch movies instead. So thus began my many endeavours to try to watch movies at my free time and whenever the nieces are not around.

It is fun to watch certain movies alone and other type of movies with my family. I have began to scout for a range of movies especially those movies that are a hit this year. After going through years without having the decent time to watch movies, I have now began to start catching up with those things that I have been missing.

So right now I am now going to start a list of movies that I have watched.

Bountiful, Beautiful and Affordable

Yesterday I went shopping with a friend of mine whom I did not think that I had much in common. However the best things about girls is that they always bond over lipsticks and the girly stuff.

Anyways... I am happy that I managed to get her dolled up and then see for herself how beautiful she looks when she makes up. She was very happy with the results. Well what else to expect when you bring someone to Bobby Brown. To me... bobby brown always transforms and creates magic. The same thing happenned to my friend - she looked so good albeit she was RM420 less richer. I got the Bobby Brown makeup artist to work her magic on my friend. The best thing was the smile on my friend's face and the fact that she looked good with the lipstick that I chose for her. To me... an expensive perfume always speaks for itself. What should a girl do.. cry over the money spent or be happy that you took care of yourself.

After my friend's transformation, it was my turn. I headed over to Estee Lauder and searched for something to spend money on. I so wanted their lipstick nevermind the big price hanging on the  lipstick. After much deliberation, I had the Estee makeup artist to work her magic on me. I initially wanted to choose the safest color that I knew looked good on me - pink lipstick. However after looking at her taste of lipstick for me... I decided to take my chance. I got her to try on red color lipstick on me... it looked so good. Then I got her to try on brown and we hit a winner. The Estee mocha lipstick was heaven sent - it made my lips look so natural and yet so tempting. I decided to also buy their beauty package on mother's day and was happy with the results.

The final result was a beaming friend and a very happy me! I believe all girls should take care of themselves and look their best. I have longed forgotten and abadoned my beauty regime. Now I want to be back in the game :-)

life sucks

I remember the time when being rebellious was the 'in' thing and that songs like 'Losing My Religion' from REM was super cool and super hot. Well.. I remember now that all these were a past time that I somehow missed out. I find that I am missing out so much in life and that I am missing all the fun time that is in.

There is no use of being serious and not having fun because I did not want to be potrayed as someone cheap and dumb. Right now.. I think I am losing out the fun and suddenly someone cut off the lights and I am leaving alone in the dark but not dancing as what Bruce Springsteen did.

How is it that I am losing out on my mojo and I am not becoming me. All those very things that I avoided is now something I am trying to claim. I want to live a normal life and yet I am not. It is as though I am living a lie. A life which is based on pretences and make believe that everything is ok as long as I do not cake in.

Maybe all the wishful thinking and the wanting is not bringing me somewhere but to a nowhere.

It has been a long time that I have written on my grateful log. I have erred from myself but I am getting back on my feet again.

Here are the things that I am grateful for:

1. I am grateful for having a new project as I wanted to have.
2. I am grateful to know that people trust me to assist them in their project.
3. I am grateful for having a job,
4. I am graetful for having good food to eat.
5. I am grateful that I am loved.
6. I am grateful for being alive
7. I am grateful for all the goof things that is happenning to me.

Failed

I am not happy today as I did not managed to get through the driving today. I was very upset. I am trying not to be disgruntled. I am not sure whether I want to try again. It is hard to not think of negative things. I keep telling myself I am no longer invicible anymore. That I should have tried harder.

However I am not going to beat myself up for anything. I am a survivor. I will get back on my feet.

Moving On

I always have loved this word - how can we move forward. Yes... this very word itself denotes that one is looking forward for the future and it that it will trangress into something better, bigger or something entirely exciting.

I also love this word : ALL is well - I learned this from Louise Hay and I have always adopted this especially whenever I start thinking negative thoughts.

I want to be strong and fit. I want to have achieved everything that I have always wanted in life. I want to assume and make all my dreams come through. No more dilly dallying anymore.

It is time to move and grow up.

compromising

compromising is at times seen as a weakness but in many cases - compromising with situations rather than getting angry and lose temper is a better option.

Patience in the outcome

I believe on and on again - there is this need for patience. I feel that every time I choose to be patience - the rewards earned are bountiful. Patience reap rewards. TRUST ALSO REAP REWARDS.

Also with the mindset that all is well will be well.
I thank God for the glory and patience that he has bestowed upon me. I thank for this day for being good and successful.

winner takes it all

Life is indeed amazing. Everytime I think that it could not get better and that I am becoming static - it is this everytime that it gets better than ever.

I am missing my mojo or rather I am without my amulet. I have stopped feeling like a winner and I am now much of a go getter only when the situation arises or calls for it. In short - I am not psyching myself. I am thrown in the wind and I am not even trying to cajole and psyche myself to be better.

To be a winner - I need to think and be a winner. In my mind's eye - I am a winner. Being is important to believe that I am a winner. I keep thinking that each day is good and all good things is happenning to me.

Recovery

I nearly thought that I could no longer access this blog anymore since I could not get in. Sometimes when one does not focus on what they are doing and blindly presses enter every time they see some window popping up - one would accidentally choose the wrong thing and then end up something like me - totally bewildered on why they are unable to access their website.

However ... rather than getting angry and showing tantrums like what I was nearly going to do - after having locked my yahoo account .. I decided to take it cool. This is why being cool is the ultimate importance in one's life. After being cool, I remembered that I must have changed my log in id - thus rendering Google to not remember my last id.

Well all this is now past. I can safely log in into my blog and all is well. I love this word... all is well and all good things is happenning to me.

Thanking God for the rewards that is raining on me

I thank God and the universe for granting me a good life.  I thank them for letting me have want I wanted which is to be promoted and receive a higher pay. Although I do think I deserve more money that what I receive -- I know that there is more money that is coming to me each and every day.

Thus I thank God for letting me be somebody and get there.

Bonus and Rewards

It's pay day today and I am so HAPPY!
I have been granted an promotion to the rank that I want and also received bonus. I DO THINK that I should get more however I am going to affirm that a 100,000 is coming to me now every now and then,

I need to be strong and be focus to remember the things that I want to do and should aim in life. No more the tree that is drifting in the sea.

Also I am driving much better - today my parking was horrid but my climb over the hill was good. Tomorrow will be much better and the days to come :-)

Wishing for the sky

It has been less of happy days this past few days. However I decide to hold on the good stuff and I managed to do it. It has dawned to me time and time again how important it is to always remain positive all the time without throwing a big fuss every now and then.

I have since made a habit of saying to myself every now and then this powerful mantra - all is well. I just need to remember anothe rline which is only all good things happens to me.  I need to reinforce these words with every breath I take and every time I think of it.

I am Love

I am love.
I have love in my heart.
I am love.
I have love surrounding me.
I am love.
Love is all around me.
I am love.
I am loved with all one's heart.
I am love.
I am cherished and taken care of.

Release Anger

I am starting to get angry again each day and hour. I want to release all my worries, anxiety and the feeling of restless or unable to do anything.

I release all my anger. 
I release all my worries.
I release all my anxiety.
I release all my tenseness in my head.
I release all the misgvings about my weight and age.
I release all this feeling of hopeless and unable to control matters.
I release feeling helpless.
I release feeling and being angry.
I release wanting to control things.
I release the feeling of unable to accelerate myself.
I release the feeling of being overweight.
I release being angry about having to give up meat.
I release all uneasiness in my heart and mind.
I release all bad and worse thinking.

I salute to peace.
I invite happiness and joy and love in my heart.
I feel love in my heart.
I feel cherished!

All is well

These three words have helped me tremendously this week and the week before. In fact ever since I heard this word - I fell in love with it and I use it almost all the time especially when I am afraid or upset.

In my heart - yes, I believe that all is well and only good things happen to me - this is my daily afirmation. I tell myself on a daily basis that I am good and that am lucky and all good things happens to me. I tell myself that I am receiving properity from all sources whether known or unknown source. I tell myself that I am rich and that I am blessed and lucky in life and all things in my life.

Hot Hot Weather

It is such a hot day today that I am thinking of going bonkers - simply ballistic because the heat is so unbearable.

My ears ache and my eye is jumping - threatening for a migraine. I am trying to think happy thoughts rather than pay attention to the pain in the eye. I wish that I could take few long baths instead of 2 only today - part of me want to take another bath right now -but I do not want to end up sick again.

I am trying to get a hold of myself. I am telling myself that I could live again and that I could move on from here. I want so bad to meet someone who is as single like me and who is looking for love. I want to find someone to love. I do not want to live alone. Everyone deserves someone and so do I.

Peace

Everytime I go to church it never fails to instill peace of mind and serenity. I feel that all my burden is taken away and I feel light. I am peace in mind and I feel my heart is lighter than it was before.

Today I decided that instead of just wasting my precious weekend on playing games, I could also take some time to listen to podcast. Thus I decided to listen to Louise Hay. I love listening to Louise Hay - she has a soothing voice that is easy to pick on her words. She is also very inspiring and I love the words and the affirmations that she uses. She strikes me as a person who is easy going and very loving. Just listening to her podcast makes me think and believe that I too am loved.

It has been for some time that I have been loved as much as I used to. I kind of miss the loving feeling - the thoughts and the vibrations that everyone likes me, that I am a good and very nice person, that I am skillful and good at my work - especially that I am pretty and very kind. It is all these thoughts that I used to nurture and feel that has brought me immense happiness to not only myself but also to the people surrounding me. Because I have chose to love myself and life, people were drawn to me like moth to a fire.  I want to stay instilling these thoughts again in myself. I also want to instill the love for myself and for the people around me , my family and friends. I want to embody someone who loves herself and is at peace with herself. I want to be greater than I was before.

Listening to Louise Hay's podcast reinforces my believe that it is how you take care of yourself and the words that you used on yourself that makes a lot of differences to one's own psyche. May I always enrich myself with good thoughts and only good will happen to me.

Weight Odds

What are the odds of losing weight when falling sick. Well I noticed that my appetite for food has not diminished except for the odd 1 day or 2. I feel and look haggard. I seem to have a perpetual exhausted look and I keep feeling hot all the time which in my case is extremely odd as I am a cold person in that I always feel cold all the time.

I am still looking at ways of losing weight. I keep telling myself to not gobble all the food that I am eating. I always noticed that I tend to gooble especially when I am in a hurry or I am eating something I do not like.

I am harboring the will and the desire to look slim - there are so many of the new clothes that I want to use and show of. Plus I seem to renew my passon for skirts -  I adore them and I miss them terribly. It has been so long that I have worn skirts less dresses and I want to look good and stand out.

Growing Wealth

Part of your income is yours to keep. Yes... I am  maintaining this principle. I may not be well but I remember the things that I need to do and remember. Now I am trying to get myself to read more of finance and wealth book to keep my mind focus on achieving and becoming filthy rich. I am also conditioning my subconcious mind to think large and to live in a limitless world that everything is possible irregardless what my concious mind may wish to think/conjure/contradict. I want to attract wealth - I want wealth to be part of my life and constant  thoughts. I am going to think that everyday is like salary day - I am getting money all the time. Only now I am going to school my mind to think that everyday is an income day and good income is coming to me in known and unknown ways.

Things that I AM Grateful for

It started off as an eventful day with myself trying to manage the meeting and discovering more new things. I think I need to work in such a way that I DO NOT FALL IN LOVE with projects or think that I can better manage.

I manage to snooze today in the train but it was hard to sleep with my nose constantly trying to leak. I got a ride to the staging area so that was a plus point and I also going back home early. I had a lovely dinner today and some quality time with my friends at work. The fever has gone off and I am happy. I am currently sneaking a preview (reading) into the book entitled 'The curious incident of the dog in the night time" by Mark Haddon - so far I am intrigue but I need to sleep in early so I can get my rest.

Gratefullness

Each day as I delve more into the mindset of attracting what I want i.e. applying the principles of the law of attraction - I learn more of myself.


I am seeing and believing what I am thinking and doing. By reading more books, I am getting a hold of my emotions and I am achieving what I am unconciously thinking - which is to be great and good at my work. I am employing my skills of listening and not merely assuming what people are saying. I no longer interruppt what people are saying - in that I take the patience to listen what they say although I may have thought what they are saying is what I know.

I am becoming more concious of thinking that I am wealth and money is coming easily to me. I now dream of my dream home and how it would look like - the things that I would buy, the family that I would have and the design of the house. I like the good feeling that comes over me whenever I think of my new home. Now I need to state when I would like to own a home such as the one that I am dreaming of and have the happiness that I have been wanting.

As I read more of the book - You were born rich by Bob Proctor - I am immerse with a new thinking - a thinking that everything can indeed be mine if I would just not doubt myself. As I transcend myself into a new thinking and behavior and embrace the principles of thought vibration and image manifestation I am learning that all that I want I am getting - and is the mindset that will bring me there.

detox

This is the diet from Ann Louise Glitteman

# Get 60 ounces of distilled or pure water and...


# Add a tablespoon of sugar free cranberry juice and...

# Add 1 dandelion root tea bag and...

# Add 2 tablespoons of lemon juice

Words become things

THOUGHTS BECOME THINGS


THOUGHTS SEND OUT THE MAGNETIC SIGNALS

STEP 1: ASK

STEP 2: ANSWER

STEP 3: RECEIVE [BE IN ALIGNMENT WHAT YOU WANT]

WAY THAT YOU FEEL IS EVERYTHING - MANIFEST INTO UR EXPERIENCE. GENERATE THE FEELINGS. UNIVERSE LIKES BEING. DONT DOUBT. ACT.



GRATITUDE [SHIFT YOUR THINKING]

THINK ABOUT

THANK ABOUT

WE BRING ABOUT

ATTITUDE GRATITUDE



VISUALIZE -? MATERIALIZE

INTENT

Resume Words that captures attentions

Words to use in your resume:

Objective: (sample)
“To gain a graduate position in a large organization where I can apply my degree in accounting then progress to the role of management accountant.”


Assist

Able

Action

Analysis

Achievement

Accomplished

Advanced

Conduct

Consult

Committed

Conducted

Contributed

Coordinated

Develop

Deliver

Design

Defined

Diversified

Devoted

Distinguished

Encourage

Earned

Enhance

Evaluate

Examined Extended

Facilitate

Formulate

Fulfilled

Forecasted

Generated

Gained

Gathered

Gave

Headed

Hosted

Identified

Implemented

Improved

Improvised

Influenced

Launched

Lobbied

Maintained

Managed

Marketed

Maximized

Mediated

Modernized

Motivated Negotiated

Observed

Obtained

Operated

Organized

Originated

Oversaw

Participated

Performed

Pioneered

Planned

Prepared

Presented

Promoted

Provided

Published

Pursued

Quantified

Ranked

Received

Recommended

Redesigned

Reengineered

Reorganized

Represented Restructured

Revised

Safeguarded

Secured

Selected

Specified

Spearheaded

Standardized

Strengthened

Structured

Suggested

Superseded

Supervised

Targeted

Taught

Tested

Trained

Transformed

Transcended

Unified

Upgraded

Utilized

Validated

Valued

Wrote

BE LIKE A TREE

I read this article online and it made a connection with me.
Article taken from: http://www.glamour.com/health-fitness/blogs/vitamin-g/2010/01/little-happiness-tip-the-simpl.html



Think of your life as a tree or a plant (stay with me here), and recognize that some things wither and die back (bad jobs or dead-end relationships, for instance)--just a fact of life. Instead of pouring out your energy into those dead zones, focus on the new growth budding beneath the surface (a new career passion, a rekindled friendship that brings you joy, a health or fitness goal) and turn your attention to those things, letting the old die away. What you focus your energy on will grow.

Amazing Thought Process

It is so amazing on how one's mind think and how they can turn their live around by just simply thinking that they are the best.

I am a true believer of what you think is what you are and that nothing is impossible and it is your mind that will alter any beliefs that you want

The above sentence rings through for me. I just experience this again yesterday and even today. By changing my thoughts that I am a fast typer, I know now longer sweat and cringe out loud whenever I take the typing test. Subconciously, I type faster when I forget I of all the WPM assessment.

This also holds true in my ability to read quickly - I have been lamenting for a while that with that many books that I have and that many pages per book, it would be a miracle for me to complete all the books in record time. 

Now that I have changed my mind from a cannot do to a can do - can read quickly behaviour and seeing it materialize to fact and truth - I now believe that I can finish reading quickly. Most importantly I believe I can speed read! My comprehension when I speed read is also fast. Gone are the old thoughts and belief that I am slow to comprehened when I push myself to read faster.

What's even greater is that I am currently reading the book entitled - 77 Mental Toughness Secrets by Steve Siebold. Whats even greater is that he ends each chapter with a goal for the reader to work on and some books to read to reinforces our inner wisdom and need to be a world class player instead of an average player.

I have long thought that when I avoid reading or watching or seeing stories/dramas that are wrought with unhappiness and challenges.. I would acoid getting sad. Oh how wrong was my thinking - Steve Siebold instead encourages us to run to the challenge rather than hide from it. What breaks us, makes us stronger - this is what I have always believed. One will never know their potential if they never try.

I am realizing my potential day by day. I am learning more of myself and I am gearing myself for greatness.  

Talk Less, Say More - The Book

I am currently reading the book entitled 'Talk Less, Say More - Three Habits to Influence Others and Make Things Happen" by Connie Dieken.

She emphasizes three ways of getting the message across which is to:

1 : connect,
2:  convey
3: convince

So far she had me at connect - everything she says and advices is true - there is no denying that. She also suprises the reader with more anecdontes and tips in which to frontload rather than ramble around, follow the golidlocks way of candor which is none too hard nor soft but just right and also most importantly to listen and connect to the person rather than focus on our PMOC (preffered method of communication).

I am now focusing on reading chap 4 - which is to convey the message to your next person there. I can't wait to read up everything - it is so interesting. Furthermore the one thing that I have learned all this while is that I should always complete reading a book quickly rather than leaving it unread for a long time because then I would lose the momentum to complete the book in time or I get bored or wrapped up in the  moment to even remember what I read or the page I last read.

Weekend

The weekend is just moving on and I am feeling bored with all the books that I am reading. It is not fascinating me any longer. I am not reading on with a good feeling - probably I should not be pushing myself to read something that I do not feel - however I do know the book is important for my career.

Embrace life

I want to embrace life. No more hiding in the house. No more giving excuses that I cannot and unable to do this or that because of something. Embracing life is all about giving yourself up to new experiences, new knowledge and new discoveries. I need to come out of my safe haven and seize the day i.e carpe diem.

From now on, I am embracing life. I am saying YES to new things. YES to new life experiences and YES to new challenges. I want to stop being the yellow submarine that I have been all my life. I want to reach out and jump out of the box. I want to stand out in the crowd - I want people to realise what a superstar I am and understand how beautiful and loved I am.

Things That I AM Grateful For

I wasn't feeling well yesterday also. I kept feeling nauseated all the time. Lunch was good with chicken rice but I felt that the food never really was digested. However the day went on well despite the above hiccups.

Thus I am grateful for the following:

1. I managed to get a place in the train yesterday and I slept all the way through.
2. I slept all the way through on my way home in the bus.
3. I got a ride from my friend to the staging area. It was wonderful as I did not need to rush through. My friend car was so beautiful I was wondering why I should not get it too. It was so comfy and spacious. Maybe I should also aim for a Peugeot.
4. I ate lightly at dinner - which is something that I should always do so I would not feel so stuffed all the time.
5. I did not managed to meet up with my good friend although it is the thought that counts and nothing else.
6. I am making more friends each day.
7. I watched the movie "Yes man" finally and I am extremely pleased with the highlight of the movie which is to embrace life and see how life moves on rather than thinking that we are not up to it and keep giving excuses. I really share the same feelings like Jim Carrey's character - we keep making excuses to save ourselves when it is not doing much for us. Dr. Schwartz is right in mentioning that excusitis is a disease that is not doing us any favor.
8. Although I am not well... I need to keep pushing myself to embrace life rather than put it on hold coz the time is never right.

Having A Cold

I am trying to get a grip of myself. I haven't been feeling well this whole day. I feel that I have so much wind in my body it is amazing why I do not feel so bloated up. Instead I am feeling winded down, nauseous and my eyes ache like crazy. The only good thing from here is that I am not eating so much. I am still dreaming of the duck pomelo salad and a nice freshing cold ginger drink. My nose is so blocked - my brain is ringing alarm bells. I hope that I do not have/get the dreaded migraine. Sleep is not coming and the broadband sucks like crazy. I am trying my hardest best to type and remember the keys without looking at the keyboard but my fingers are making mistakes. Still it is best not to push my luck and think that my typing skills are slipping because this is not true - it is just my fingers and the pain that is driving or rather testing my durability and patience in typing.

Things I AM Grateful for today

I am grateful for the following things today:

 

1. that I am blessed with colleagues who supports me in their endeavours
2. that I manage good meetings and build rapport with people.
3. that I am blessed with good looks
4. that I had a place to sit down today in the train and had a good nap
5. that I had a lovely and light dinner
6. that I am in people's good thoughts and people think highly of me.
7. that the day was well managed and executed
8. that I enjoyed myself at work today.

Podcast

I like listening to Louis Hay's podcast on feeling better in and out. I listen to this incessantly and often - she says that even though you are not really listening - out subconcious mind is picking up those words that means and appeals to my inner being. Louis Hay has a wonderful and soothing voice - she makes me happy to listen to her talks just like how Robin Sharma's voice does this to me.

I am happy that I am doing and practicing positive changes in my life. I am retaining my humanity and my ambition to do better than what I am doing right now.

+VE Changes

I am trying to change my ways for the better to be more goal oriented rather that keep going out with the flow on no direction. It is not good to be directionless - I feel like a zombie in which I have no where to go and is aimless in my life.

I am working on positive changes in my life since 2010. I am setting out some goals for me to follow. I am starting with the small things. I do believe wholeheartedly on the adage that one must always stop to appreciate the small things in life as it translates to small wins that awakens the mind and soothes the soul.

The first thing that I am working out is the following:

1. I listen to feel good podcast - to keep me thinking and living positively
2. I listen more to myself - my awareness of myself. I listen to myself - as what Eckhart Tolle has spoken - keep quiet and listen to oneself.
3. I try to keep up my skills in terms of my typing and reading so I can complete things in a shorter time especially reading skills as I can read more of all the books that I so much want to complete reading.
4. I tell myself to stop and think of a retort rather than give into anger and yell out loud.
5. I am trying to wake up early each day so I have more time to myself and even is able to work out something rather than rush through the morning.
6. I try to incorporate changes that makes positive changes in me - no matter how small the changes or big the changes.
7. I am challenging myself to do more and get out of my comfort zone.  I am reaching and doing more and more of this each day.

I Wish

I wish upon a new life and a new place. I wish that I am given and blessed with abundance in prosperity, wealth and happiness. I wish that I come into lots of money, buy myself a new house and have love surround me always. I wish to have a large kitchen and a big garden. I wish to be blessed with eternal happiness. I wish I find the house and car of my dreams I wish that there are no more bickering and arguments in my house. I wish that all is well and ends well.

Mornings are Sacred!

I think that everyone wakes up in the morning and thinks of something - either they thank God for allowing them one more day to live, or they workout or they are simply like me who make a dash to the toilet and get ready for the day with no further thoughts of God or workouts or how their life is.

It would seem that some people still go on their day thinking the worst of people and only of their feelings no matter what other people say. It is these people that I think should be given a short life. For these people are nothing but troublemakers who are bent to not only moan and groan about their existence but to also ensure that people around them is equally miserable. For these sort of people, I wish that God gives them  a speedy return to Hell and never come back again.

Blues

I think that my mind is just singing the blues. It is one of those days where I am going somewhere but not all together there! It has been a quiet day at work and at home at one point it was the opposite. However I am a firm believer of the adage - you make your bed, you sleep in it.

A Good Finisher

I want to be a good finisher. As Robin Sharma says: everyone can be a good starter but not everyone is a good finisher. I think Robin is right - alot of people myself included are good starters and never quite good finishers.

There are all the books that I have started reading and not quite finished reading. Then there are those books that I have set goals to read them at a certain time and I did not do. There is this PMP examination that I have been putting off.

Well no more!.

From today and now on at this very moment, I want to be a good finisher. I am going to keep track on the how many projects that I have finished. Those things that I need to accomplish - I want to accomplish immediately. This year I am going to put myself on  a scale. I am going to keep track on what I want to do and what I should be doing and have been uncharacteristically procrastinating till now. This is very unchilvarous of me and I am always polite ain't I.

5am Wake-Up

I woke up today at 5am suddenly. The only thought that ran into my mind was that I am doing what I always wanted which is to follow Robin Sharma's invitation to join the 5am wake-up club.

I did not budge from the bed anyways. I did want to sleep a little bit more. However instead of sleeping I was thinking of unsavory thoughts - thoughts that I should not think once they are a wake. Vendetta thinking is not good for the soul or so I think.

So what does a girl do when she wakes up this early in the morning? She tells herself that she is waking up to greatness and she blogs about the goodness and sacredness of waking up in the morning. She then focuses her mind of thinking great things. She thinks that soon she can translate waking up in the morning with a refreshing morning jog. She thinks of the all the synomyns that comes with the word great. She thinks that she should filled up her mind with positive thoughts and positive vibration. She thinks that she is working this up nicely and soon would be able to take it few notches high.

Since I am up this early - I want to clear my mind of negativity:

1. I need to stop not wanting people to get ahead of me or be at par of me by denying myself the ability to improve myself.
2. I need to stop trying to sleep more and forego doing what is right for me.
3. I need to stop getting angry all the time.
4. I need to give myself up at greatness. I have always wanted to achieve everything and now I am going to take pains to get it.

I want to reach higher heights. I want to be able to look up the sky and tell myself that I did it. I did everything I sought myself to do.

Feeling Lucky

I want to wake up each morning thinking how lucky I am and guessing all the good things that is happenning to me. I know that I have always been lucky in that I am able to attract attention as fast as lightning. I know that I am lucky - lucky to have all the things that I have in life.

I am lucky in life and in love. I am lucky always. I have always been lucky in life and I will always will  be.

Releasing Anger

I am becoming an angry person. At times, I do not know where the anger comes, it just does. And suddenly I find myself losing control on my temper. It has never been like this for so long and now it is happenning again. Shucks, I need to control and reign in my temper.

HOW to Read Everything

I have got tons and tons of books and yet I haven't the foggiest idea on how to read everything in record time. Between the quantity of pages and the classics, self help, and personal development books I do not know where and how to start. Which book should I start reading and if yes based on what - on the scale of the title that appeals to me, on number of pages, on what is amazing right now or what I should be reading right now - I am unsure. I think I should star with those books that mean much to me right now and those I can learn from, those books that amuse me and those books that will transcend me to higher heights for this year I want to climb the highest career ladder and be at the top.

Prayers

Today I attended the Holy Hour that is held every first First Friday of the month. This is the first time this year that I have attended this Holy Hour. The most interesting this about this holy hour is that it was combined with Our Lady's feast today.

After the usual holy hour and attendance of mass, I visited Mother Mary's shrine and I put in my plea and said my prayers. Since a Lourdes bath was held after mass, I decided to join this also especially since my sis-in-law was interested to join in.  I felt rejuvenated after the partial bath. I was happy to undertake this. It made feel like I have cleansed away all my sins, worries and tribulations. In fact I feel more at peace with myself. Worries have vanished away and I am glad that I did not chicken out. I also told myself to be more strong within and not to always give in the compulsion to cringe and feel emotional about everything. The good news is that I am progressing on holding onto to my emotions and I no longer feel overwhelmed with everything.

Independence Day - Movie

Ever since the movie Independence day came out in 1996, I have kicked myself for not watching it. I have agonising and regretted it the many times, this movie came out in conversations with friends.

Just lately I thought of watching this movie again and guess what? I am watching the movie right now. It is every inch good as I have heard. In fact, it is so damn good. I am so thrilled I can't find the words to tell you how great the movie is. In 1996 - this is one of the best of the sci-fi pictures after star wars or movies like ghost busters- a masterpiece at that particular decade and even until now.. it is an amazing movie. A must see!

Law of Attraction rocks!

Things That I AM Grateful About

I am glad that each and every day I grow stronger in understanding myself and is reaching to achieving my life dreams. Alot of wonderful things are happening to me each day and I thank the Lord for blessing me with good luck and the gift of getting things done.

I thank the universe particularly for the following things:

1. allowing me to make the right decision by hopping on the bus at the right time and reaching home safely in the bus with nary a higher cost.
2. obtaining a seat for me in the train and allowing me to have a short and eventful nap.
3. for allowing me to complete most of my financial costing
4. for helping me to get things done.
5. for blessing me with the brain and the ability to always think of alternative ways to get what I want.
6. for blessing me with good friends and colleagues
7. for the fact that I can make friends easily without issues.

Jumpstart my Day

Today has been an eventful day with myself completing the things that I wanted such as getting a place to sit in the train, having a short nap on the way to work and after work, attending the meeting at the new location, downloading stuffs, syncing my PC with my laptop and finally coming home early and having a lovely dinner. Oh and I did look very lovely today with my blazer and trousers plus my typing skills is getting noticeably better each time I type. Yahoo! Now I just need to amp up my typing speed.

The day moved rather fast today and I did not miss much at work. I still need to start something and get the projects running rather than stopping short there at trying to psyche myself up to start working.

List of Books that I Read in 2011

Here is the list:

1. The science of getting rich by Wallace Wattles
2. Of Mice And Men by John Steinbeck
3. The Prophet by Khalil Gibran
4. Broken Wings - Khalil Gibran
5. Earth Gods - Khalil Gibran Things fall apart - Chinua Achebe
6. The Pit and the Pendulum - Poe, Edgar Allan
7. The Call Of The Wild - Jack London
8. What to Say When You Talk to Your Self - Shad Helmstetter
9. The Forerunner - Kahlil Gibran

List of Books that I Read in 2010

Here are the list of books that I have read in 2010:

1. Amanda Quick Paid Companion
2. Anthony Robbins Awaken The Giant Within
3. Anthony Robbins Letters from A Friend
4. Benjamin Hoff - The Tao of Pooh
5. Carolyn Keene Mystery of Crocodile Island
6. Carolyn Keene Secret of the Red Gate Farm
7. Carolyn Keene The Crumbling Wall
8. Carolyn Keene The Secret of the Old Clock
9. David Schwartz The Magic of Thinking Big
10. Diane Irons World's Best Kept Beauty Secrets What Really Works In Beauty, Diet & Fashion
11. Douglas Adams The Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy (1979)
12. Victoria Hislop The Island
13. Dr Spencer Johnson Who Moved My Cheese
14. Dr. Richard Carlson Don't Sweat the Small Stuff
15. Emma Wildes Lady Tremayne
16. Emma Wildes The Switch
17. Geneive Behrend Your Invisible Power
18. George Orwell Animal Farm by
19. Jack Canfield TheSuccessPrinciples
20. James Allen As a Man Thinketh
21. John Burnham Schwartz Reservation Road
22. Julia Quinn Dancing at Midnight (Blydons 2 )
23. Julia Quinn Further Observations of Lady Whistledown
24. Julia Quinn How to Marry a Marquis
25. Julia Quinn Minx
26. Julia Quinn Romancing Mr Bridgerton (Bridgerton 04)
27. Julia Quinn To Catch an Heiress
28. Julia Quinn To Sir Philip With Love (Bridgerton 05)
29. Julia Quinn When He Was Wicked (Bridgerton series)
30. Lewis Carrol Alice in Wonderland
31. Malcolm Gladwell Blink
32. Michael J. Losier Law of Attraction
33. Mitch Albom 5 People You Meet In Heaven
34. Patricia Bragg Apple Cider Vinegar Miracle Health System
35. Paul Bragg The Miracles of Fasting
36. Paul Coelho The Alchemist
37. Paul Coelho The Way of the Bow
38. Paul Coelho Warrior Of The Light: A Manual
39. Paulo Coelho Brida
40. Paulo Coelho By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept
41. Paulo Coelho Veronika decides to die
42. Rhonda Byrne The Secret
43. Richard Bach Jonathan Livingston Seagull
44. Roald Dahl Beware of the Dog
45. Roald Dahl Fantastic Mr. Fox (1970)
46. Roald Dahl The Twits (1980)
47. Rob Yeung The Ten Career Commandments
48. Robin Sharma The Monk Who Sold A Ferrari
49. Scott Peck Further Along The Road Less Traveled
50. Susan Wright To Serve and Submit

End of Holidays!

It has been a quiet holiday with most of my time spent watching tv, reading or learning to type faster. I think that now that I have mastered most of the keys - my typing has gone much slower. Oh well... I guess it will get faster as I get used to using all my fingers to type rather that using just the two fingers to type.

I have read and completed at least 5 books during the holidays which accounts for my staying in the house instead of going out.

I did go out many times with dire consequences in which I spent like mad. The good thing is that I managed to have that talk that I wanted to have with my nieces, I bought what what my eldest niece wanted for her birthday, I attended a birthday dinner, I shopped for the things that I wanted and obtained these at a reasonable price. I have improved my typing with all the exercises that I did. I drove much better since the first day and I look forward to drive. I paid my insurance for this month and also for the next.

In short - it has been an eventful holiday. I cleaned my room and the porch for off times. I washed the bathroom as per weekly as per what I wanted to do. I feel that I have spent my holiday well. I updated my resume on three job sites. I am doing well and better and I am achieving what I wanted to do this week save from reading the PMP book. However I am confident that I can do this easily for this month before I start sitting for the examination.

Boredom

A few days in the house and I am already bored out of my ears. Reading is not cutting it at all.

Finding Treasures

I looked back at all those treasures that I have been hoarding and keeping all this while and found so many books that are so interesting to read that I wonder how to keep up with all these or even find the time to complete reading every one of them.

I find myself coming to the cross stage where I need to isolate the most cherished books that I had always wanted to read and those books and authors who I have not heard about yet have very interesting tales to tell.

Khalil Gibran - the author, poet and wise man

This has been an enterprising day - I have read two books in one day. Know that thou these books are short in text but so rich in their meaning that one cannot read too fast for lest we lose the beauty of his words.

I so love Khalil Gibran's thoughts and words and the manner that he spins a story. I like the way he gently brings the reader to the meaning behinds his storytelling. It was strange to know that this was an author from the 1923's - however it is easy to understand the eloquence and the richness of his words to have to belong from that era.

Books I have Completed Reading in February

Here are the books that I have completed reading in February.

Books that I have read:

1. Broken Wings - Khalil Gibran [COMPLETED on 2 Feb 2011] I am so astonished and taken aback at the beautiful writing and the comprehension of love so eloquently written that I could not stop reading for the want to read those lovely words and find out the storyline was too much for me to bear.
2. Earth Gods - Khalil Gibran [COMPLETED on 2 Feb 2011] I am not the kind of girl who is bonkers about poems yet like all girls I like someone to narrate beautiful poems to me. What can I say about Gibran - he charms me to no end and I love the way he sees and presents things and yet put thoughts in your mind to see more and to learn more and also to appreciate more. 
3. Things fall apart - Chinua Achebe [COMPLETED on 2 Feb 2011] Amazing story that I could not put off reading and turning the pages in one afternoon. I read like a girl possessed though being me - I wondered how it was all to end and how fast could I finish it. This is not the kind of book that I would read but I could not resist. The first few words had me hooked to the book and I found myself reading more of the text which lead to many paragraphs and this lead to more words which then all ended with a profound ending.
4. The Pit and the Pendulum - Poe, Edgar Allan [COMPLETED on 2 Feb 2011] A gripping story but one that ends too quickly and left me wondering and wanting for more.
5. The Call Of The Wild - Jack London  [COMPLETED on 5 Feb 2011] Very interesting story that will have one sitting through to complete this book.
6. What to Say When You Talk to Your Self - Shad Helmstetter [COMPLETED on 5 Feb 201] I was not so impressed with this book though I know by experience that Helmtetter is right that the brain and the subconscious mind is awaken with the positive words one says out loud.
7. The Forerunner - Kahlil Gibran [COMPLETED on 7 Feb 2011] I love Gibran's work and there is nothing else to say anymore. 
8. A Tear and a Smile - Kahlil Gibran [COMPLETED on 19 Feb 2011]
9. Talk Less, Say More Three Habits to Influence Others and Make Things Happen - Connie Dieken [COMPLETED on 19 Feb 2011] This is a book that everyone needs to read and follow through. Connie's advice is dead on the target and she dishes out tips and tricks and remedies that one can follow in live easily with her three pointers - connect, convey and convince. 

Stuffs that I have ACHIEVED

I am very happy that since 2010 that most things that  I wanted to achieve I have managed to do this.
The stuff that I am proud that I have done, completed and accomplished are as follows:

1. Read those self-help and personal development books including the romance, adventure and self-actualization books.
2. Completed reading 40 books and more in one year - yeah to achieving objectives.
3. Bought the clothes that I wanted at fraction of the original cost.
4. Went overseas to a new country that I never went.
5. Successfully completed the big 11months project that I worked for.
6. Earned a reputation for an effective project manager who has successfully completes whichever project she is given.
7. Bought those sweaters and cardigans I have been eyeing on for so long.
8. Went over to ING and self looked at the payments that I have made so far.
9. Came this close to buying a new car - but did not. Well... I will have another chance soon  and this will be a car that I will be using for many years to come.
10. Started driving again.
11. Got promoted in 2011 as  I have dreamt for.
12. Have a much bigger salary than I ever had for so long. I am coming nearer to RM7200 per month salary that I am working on.
13. Undertook the PMP training that I wanted to do so for so long. I am now on my way of taking up the PMP exam in March 2011.
14. Got that iron board that I wanted so much.
15. Bought that clothes closet that I wanted so much. Yeah to IKEA.
16. Learnt to let go and not keep grudges.
17. Watched the books that I read come alive on TV.
18. Made wise investments in public mutual and in my purchases especially my insurance.

Watching and Reading the book

Since last September 2010, I have been investing time in reading and watching movies that have come alive from the books that was written either eons ago or recently.

 

To me ... it is so symbolic of the age and of the things to come. I have always been the one who used to think that it is better to watch the movie rather than read the book. However, I could not be anymore wrong because after watching 'Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland - I was so amazed and taken aback. I would have never in the million years dreamt or imagined or conjured Alice like Burton did. There is a different feeling of reading the book and then seeing it on the tele. It is like having your dreams come true - literally in every sense. It's mind boggling.

 

So being the list sort of person that I am or maybe the materialistic person I am, I decided that for once, I shall list down all the books that I read that made it to the TV.

 

List

1. Alice in Wonderland [Nov 2010]
2. Journey to the center of the earth 
3. Moby Dick
4. The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy [Dec 2010]
5. Of Mice and Men [Feb 2011]

Time

I am finding that my holidays is just moving too fast without myself achieving those things that I want. It is a little post apocalypse with most of my time is spent either on the dog, surfing the net or watching TV. Then there is the part that I need to play host to my brother or niece whenever they come around.

I guess there is this part of me who feel responsible for being with the person even though there is the other part of me who wants to go upstairs and finish that book that I wanted or practice that typing classes that I wanted etc.

I am trying to do my best without incurring much money. This means that I should stay home rather than go out for I feel that I tend to spend more when I am out. The RM500 groceries is a testimony of this. I know that I have done the right thing in this. I guess I am just a little tired today with most of my time was taken up by nothing doing much other than reading and waiting in the morning.

I endeavour to take more of my time today and spend it wisely instead of being in front of the tele all the time tonight.

My Sister's Keeper - the Movie

Last night I saw the tearjerker movie - My Sister's Keeper. I remember wanting to read Jodi Piccoult's book for so long and last year when I saw the trailer in December, I knew that I wanted to read the book before I watched the movie.

My guess... that last December, I was rather too busy to read book. This is why now... I decided to watch the movie anyways and then read the book whenever I am free.

I cried if you must know. I feel and know that life is short - it is how you live it and no matter how bad one feels - we should always feel thankful that God has given us this life to live in.

I love the movie. I think I would like to read the book also. Although normally this is not the kind of book that I tend to read simply because the story reeks of tragedy however I learn that I love to surprise myself to read up something which is not my usual cup of tea.

Looks like I am living my life more. I am happy with the way that things are going . I know that I am blessed with ability to live life.

Lessons from My Dog

I am somehow the owner of a pincher dog. My brother actually bought it for himself or rather for his kids and somehow the dog is now my pet.

I can't say I love the dog yet. It has been so long that I have loved another. Let alone a dog. After all these years - I do not fancy animals especially dogs anymore. It is like I have grown up like an old tree and something in me withered away. Is this what the world makes people to become or has age mould me to this selfish uncaring person - or does love that has been broken up does that to someone.

The lessons that I learn from my dog day by day is that he (the dog) is very punctual for food. He tries to not disturb people but he cannot help but to make demands when he wants to go out or to eat. In short - the dog maintains a simple logic at certain times, he wants to go out to pee and off times he just wants to eat - that at the same time each day.

Today, I have relented fighting with my dog. I no longer want to dissuade or push or refuse to care more for the dog. Today, I decided that the dog is just a dog and he is not behaving like an alpha male or breed - he just wants his food on time.

The dog also teaches me some amount of patience. It seems each day, I am learning more and more of new things and renewed patience.

Managing Time

There are so much that I want to do and so little time. I also need time to be ready and go out of the house and get those things that I wanted. Now I am going to take a bath and then will go out to get my shoes done, to buy the table top and also to look around here and there for something savoury. This will take me another 3 hours to complete. Not sure whether this is what I want.

A Week Off

I have a week off this week and I am determined to make sure that I am using it all in an effective and useful manner.

Starting off this week, is that I am working on spring cleaning my house. It has been some time that I have done my share of the work . This year I am 36 years old. I do not want to look back when I am 40years old and think what the hell have I done with my life. There is so much of things that I want to do. I do not want to remiss my life thinking that I have not done this and that and that I have wasted my youth.

So what does a lady do? Noticed that I am not referring to myself as a girl anymore. I am going to obsess in getting more successful and a bigger pay. I want new opportunities to work overseas. I want to be the lady of the game. The cool, slim successful woman who can have everything that I want just like I was before.

To get what I want, I need to earn it. I need to know what I want, where I want to go and just go there. In short, I just need to DO IT! To hang with all the miss-ups and the what would people think of me, the ifs and I am not ready. Well... no one can always be prepared all the time. I just need to grow up! Wake up and smell the roses.

Achieving -

Today I achieved what I set out to accomplish this year - which is to read more than 2-3 books per month. Probably you may think that this is an easy accomplishment since I managed to read over 40 over books last year. But understand that I did not confine myself to completing xx number of books per month.

Still... you may be right and I may be wrong. Thus I will take up on the offer of reading more than 3 books per month - perhaps 4 or 5 books.

Then again there is this challenge of losing weight. I think I am going to take Jillian's challenge of losing weight in 6 weeks. This is going to be a hard challenge simply because it has been raining like cats and dogs this week and there is no way I am going to wake up my freezing ass and then travese down the lane and take big steps to walk or jog.

I do not think that I can bring the dog along with me on my walks as there are big dogs that are not only ferocious but also not scared of an adult who is walking her dog.

So this leaves me to somehow ply my time exercising. I think I am going to start my squat trust and plank and jump workout - this will get me going. Also I need to tone my arms by moping with my hands.

Yes... I did forget to wash the bathroom today. I probably skipped this because I did not want to play with water so much - after all as I said earlier it rained like hell today.

Think Big, Think Abundance and Manifest

I am reaping those things that I am sowing. I am now walking the walk and talking the talk. I am not going to blow my horn for anything less than achievement.

I am not putting myself into a strict regime and I am going to monitor myself. I know longer want to think why I am not losing my weight. I am going to think fitness - think fit and look fit. This means that each day I need to do at least 3 fit things - i.e. take the dog for longer walks, walk up and down the stairs, mop the floor in the room on my knees and scrub the perimeter of the bathroom with more energy.

I plan to also do some high kicks and some punches and those hit and jabs exercise to boost my martial arts sort of workout. So I am going to give myself a benchmark each day to start.  I am going to start at 10 workouts for each leg and then trangress each day for two more. I need to achieve this until I can achieve 3 sets of 15 workouts each day with nary a fluttering breath or two.

Then  I am going to dedicate everyday of my life to visualize at least for 10mins those things that I want so badly. I am going to manifest secretly that I am receiving abundance each day and something good is happenning to me every day and every minute. Only good things happens to me - this is one thing I believe other than everything I want I will get.

Personality Test Fun Test

Here are my results for Global Test:

Global Personality Test Results

Stability (56%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic. Orderliness (60%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun. Extraversion (43%) moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

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Personality Test - Left/Right Brain

Here are my results: I am Left Brain Type

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Brain Lateralization Test Results

Right Brain (40%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain. Left Brain (52%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain

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Explainations: Left brain dominant individuals are more orderly, literal, articulate, and to the point. They are good at understanding directions and anything that is explicit and logical. They can have trouble comprehending emotions and abstract concepts, they can feel lost when things are not clear, doubting anything that is not stated and proven. Right brain dominant individuals are more visual and intuitive. They are better at summarizing multiple points, picking up on what's not said, visualizing things, and making things up. They can lack attention to detail, directness, organization, and the ability to explain their ideas verbally, leaving them unable to communicate effectively. Overall you appear to be Left Brain Dominant ----------------------------------------- According to Darwinian theory, optimal evolution takes place with random variation and selective retention. The evolution savvy individual will try many different approaches when faced with a problem and select the best of those approaches. Many historical intellectuals have confessed their advantage was simply considering/exploring/trying more approaches than others. The left brain dominant type suffers from limited approaches, narrow-mindedness. The right brain dominant type suffers from too many approaches, scatterbrained. To maintain balanced hemispheres, you need to exercise both variability and selection. Just as a company will have more chance of finding a great candidate by increasing their applicant pool, an individual who considers a wider set of options is more likely to make quality decisions.

Personality Test - The Big Five

Here are my results:

Big Five Test Results

Extroversion (48%) medium which suggests you average somewhere in between being assertive and social and being withdrawn and solitary. Accommodation (58%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex). Orderliness (56%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, neat, structured and restrained at the expense too often of flexibility, variety, spontaneity, and fun. Emotional Stability (60%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic. Inquisitiveness (36%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly small minded, traditional, and conventional at the expense of intellectual curiousity, possibility, and progress.

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Enneagram 2 -

These are my results:
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Enneagram Personality Type Indicator Results
Your highest score will indicate you basic type, or it will be among the top 2-3 scores. Low scores in some type might come out negative. That's perfectly normal.

For best results, you should answer all the questions that apply.

Type 1 Type 2 Type 3 Type 4 Type 5 Type 6 Type 7 Type 8 Type 9
-4 5 7 1 7 -9 -3 -1 -3


The Nine Personality Types of the Enneagram
Type 1: The Reformer. The rational, idealistic type.
Type 2: The Helper. The caring, nurturing type.
Type 3: The Motivator. The adaptable, success-oriented type.
Type 4: The Artist. The intuitive, reserved type.
Type 5: The Thinker. The perceptive, cerebral type.
Type 6: The Skeptic. The committed, security-oriented type.
Type 7: The Generalist. The enthusiastic, productive type.
Type 8: The Leader. The powerful, aggressive type.
Type 9: The Peacemaker. The easygoing, accommodating type.

Explainations
Dynamics of Type 5: Thinker
World View: The world is invasive and confusing. I need privacy to think.
Basic Desire: to understand the world
Basic Fear: of being overwhelmed by the world




Healthy loop controlled by Basic Desire:

Need to understand the world -> observe -> analyze -> understand the world -> Need to understand the world

In the healthy state, the need to understand the world induces Type Fives to observe and analyze the world, which help them to better understand the world. When Fives reach a good understanding of the world around them, their need is satisfied and a balance is reached.

In the average state, when Fives' do less of observing and analyzing the world, they start to not understand the world. This increases their need to understand the world, which helps Fives to return to more observation and analysis. Thus the balancing loop can help Fives to recover.

Unhealthy loop controlled by Basic Fear:

Fear of being overwhelmed by the world -> detach from the world -> understand the world -> Fear of being overwhelmed by the world

In the unhealthy state, the basic fear of being overwhelmed by the world can cause Type Fives to become detached from the people around them and the world around them as a defense. This unfortunately causes them to understand the world even less, which further increases Fives' basic fear. The cycle continues to build up.

Insight:

We can see from the diagram that a way to help break the control of the basic fear is to weaken the unhealthy loop. Fives can stop their detachment from the world, and start to observe and analyze the real world more. This will increase their understanding of the world, and reduce their fear of being overwhelmed by the world.

Enneagram 1 - Similiar Minds

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and the scale

Enneagram Test Results Type 1 Perfectionism 54% Type 2 Helpfulness 58% Type 3 Image Focus 70% Type 4 Hypersensitivity 30% Type 5 Detachment 58% Type 6 Anxiety 58% Type 7 Adventurousness 66% Type 8 Aggressiveness 58% Type 9 Calmness 58% Your main type is 3 Your variant is sexual

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Things That I AM Grateful Today

I am grateful for so many things today. I am grateful that I woke up early, I managed to go online and read more of the secrets to be headhunted and to also have a tasty breakfast.

I am grateful for using my time wisely today - by taking time to drive out, testing out my typing skills on the Mavis Beacon software, giving the dog a bath, washing the floor outside and even taking time to listen to the success mp3s.

I also saved money by not wasting it on something that I did not want. I am also thankful for the 5 earrings that I bought - so beautiful and pretty at such a small cost. I am looking for getting things at a money worth - to buy things that are beautiful, attractive, useful at a small cost or even at a fraction cost of the cost of the same things elsewhere.

Success - Reaping the seeds that I have sown

Today I drove again and found that I tend to freeze whenever I am at the traffic light. I even felt bored because I felt that I could not speed up but it was a different kind of sensation of being in the driver's seat rather than the passenger seat after all this while. I guess I can drive better and have better confidence with more practice and constant rememberance that of the rules of driving.

I am extremely grateful that I managed to drive for 2 hours successfully. I know I am getting better everytime I am behind the wheel. Now I need to remember that I need to start looking at the mirrors for cars and motorcycles or even pesky people who try to play pranks on the road.

As for trying my hand to type much faster - I did this also. I tried and followed on for more than 2 hours on the Mavis Beacon software. I feel that my typing is much faster than before. I certainly use more of my fingers so the speed of my typing is certainly much faster.

I am making less typing mistakes and I do not look at the keyboard anymore when I typed or even spell the words out loud.

Today, I also decided to psyche my mind to think of more success and to empower my subconsious to think great and big again. I want to be as ambitions as I was. Thus, I started listening to the 50 Success Classic stories. These mp3 are parts of the Law of Attraction. It is interesting because the author summarizes all the important points of these classic books.

"What the mind think and see, it believes" - these are words that I need to tell myself every now and then.

So there you are I am making progress in my life by moving out my safe space. I am challenging myself a little more and even more.

Taking Up the Challenge in 2011

This 2011, I am challenging myself to do better, to win better, to do things differently and everything that will stress, change and compel me to move out of my comfort zone.

This 2011, I am into hoisting skill-sets. I want to be better that what I am right now. I want to take up that Spanish lessons that I always wanted. I want to type much faster that I am doing right now. I want to type at a bullet speed so fast I'd stop myself from spelling all the time.  I want to start driving around - the joy of it is so thrilling and most importantly - I want to stop selling myself short.

I hereby declare that I am no longer a yellow submarine. I want to take up new chances and choices. I do not want to ever shy away from taking risk. I have always pride myself from taking risk and I am going to do it. There is no use of going through life - going through mundane things and wishing things just got better and then see it slip away.

I want to start running marathons, take up canoeing or dancing. I want to lighten up the space in my life. I want to find someone to love and be loved. I want someone that I deserve - someone kind and gentle and loving to me.

I want to challenge myself out of a career rut. I want to be paid for my capabilities and my skills. I know that I have better skills than my peers. I am all out to sell my skills to the highest bidder. I want to work with large corporations, MNC and I want to be going to new places and new countries. I want to earn 3 times that I am doing right now. I want to work in an overseas company.

I want to break free from my comfort zone. I know longer will be that yellow submarine that I always think that I am. I want to stand out. I want people to look at me and respect my skills. I want people to see me knowing that I am their biggest competitor and I am the best of my trade and I can beat that at every juncture of every game that they play.

I am getting back to my roots. I want to be a superstar at my work - my skills will speak for myself. People will speak of my strengths and capabilities - and this will induce me to do better and become the best of my trade.

Carving out success

I am raising my ambition again. I want power, recognition, more money and title. I am looking for all this and more. I am climbing Maslow's tower of hierarchy. I want to achieve all that is there. I want MORE. I want position and pay and now I am all out to get it.

I am thinking BIG!

Challenge

After years and months of procrastination, I decided to challenge myself out of my comfort zone and into doing the things that I have been dragging my feet on. It would seem that at least by doing this, I am challenge to do something for 2011 that I can be proud of.

My challenge for 1st Quarter of 2011

1. Workout - go for the run/walk that I have been putting of for years!
2. Resume typing faster - need to start up that Mavis Beacon software again and start attempting their exercises. My fingers already know most of the keys, however my speed of typing is still not up to the mark. I type really slow when I am trying to use all my ten fingers.
3. Start experimenting with my dressing! Another four more years and I am 40 years old - I cannot and will not be looking back at my life and wondering why I never had the nerve to do this and that. After all, 50 is new 30.
4. Start driving! 
5. Start reading 2-3 books per month. I should also complete all those books that I started reading but have not completed. It is such as waste. Oh I know... each month I should be reading 2 new books and 1 book which I have not completed. I have about 5 books that I did not complete reading.

Things I AM Grateful For Today

Today has been a smashing day. I managed to achieve whatever I wanted and even more. I am more than please with myself - I think ever since last Sunday after  I came back from driving.

I accomplished having 2 meetings in one day - not bad for someone who has been free of meetings since Jan 4 - almost 3 weeks of no activity or shall I say ... slow activity.

I managed to elicit most of the information that I needed. I have the backup of my team who supports me all the time and care for me. It is good to know that my team is every supportive of me and are my number one supporters :-)

I am exceedingly happy for the dinners invites that I have been provided. I am even more happy that I made an exception to attend these dinners. At times, it is good to show some face rather than stay away. I am grateful for my unwanning enthusiam to start driving again. I cannot wait to start driving further away from home - such as to the supermarket, to the shops nearby, to park my car and test my parking skills, to even driving on the highway to work!

To think about it, it is good to feel important and to be in the good books of people especially bossess and vendors and clients and most importantly my project team.

I am happy for having such a good network of friends - we are a tight knit family. I just need to throw of my apprehension of  thinking people are telling me what to do when it is obvious I know my work.

Things That I AM Grateful Today

There are many things that I am grateful today:

1. I am proud that I managed to pull through today even though I felt like vomitting, had a terrible toothache problem and right cheek swelled.
2. I am also proud of myself of being true to my word and turned up for the dinner tonight.
3. I am extremely happy that I made the right decision in coming home early today and also to cement the quarrel I had with my brother in the morning.
4. I am grateful for learning to grow up and making friends with people whom I had some disagreements earlier. This has been extremely hard on me - especially in talking to someone I probably had just yelled days/weeks/hours ago.
5. I am grateful for the people who trust and care for me.
6. I am grateful that people who vouches for me.
7. I am exceedingly thankful for the new projects that I have to keep myself occupied.
8. I want to start concentrating on visualizing that headhunters will keep plying me with offers to work in their company. It makes me happy to no end to know that I am always wanted.

Manifesting Money

Today I received info that I have been waiting for. It is shocking that I did not obtain any salary increment - I have been provided the technical allowance but nothing more. I hope that this is somehow changed by march when the promotions come in.

I can't say that I am not sad because I was a tad bit upset for few minutes. However I do not want to abandon my thought manifestations in which I am surrounding myself with the vibe that I am attracting money in abundance. I have always received what I wanted so the money bit will come. In fact, I am projecting that money will come/rain  down upon me so much so my pockets will be filled with money day by day. So I am keeping my thoughts and resources open - money is coming to be in abundance!

Personal DNA

Here is my results:


http://www.personaldna.com/report.php?k=wlDfJjYfqhqPZZd-HF-AADAD-96b3&u=5c89e5b91324

My personalDNA Report
 

Fave Cartoon Character

This is an interesting and funny quiz.
You can try it out at: http://www.jeeze.com/funstuff/cartoonquiz/

Turns out that I am a:

You are Tweety!


You are cute, and everyone loves you.


You are a best friend that no one takes the chance of losing. You never hurt feelings and seldom have your own feelings hurt. Life is a breeze. You are witty, and calm most of the time. Just keep clear of backstabbers, and you are worry free.

Another fun test is the 100 Acre Personality Quiz
http://www.quizmeme.com/poohpersonality/quiz.php

Turns out that I am: Kanga
our Score for The 100 Acre Personality Quiz: 43%
43% 43 points out of 100

2,070,905 people have taken this quiz so far.


548,871 are the same charactor as you (Kanga).

 I do not know whether I am really that disappointed because I kind of wanted to become Pooh ... but I am not that daft and sweet and so very thoughtful like Pooh. I think I will stick to being something like Kanga.


your score:

Jung's Personality Test

Quiz at : http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

Results:
Your Type is:  INTJ

Introverted Intuitive Thinking Judging

Strength of the preferences %

78 25 12 33


Qualitative analysis of your type formula

You are:

* very expressed introvert

* moderately expressed intuitive personality

* slightly expressed thinking personality

* moderately expressed judging personality

Kershey's explaination of a Rational or what he terms as a Mastermind http://keirsey.com/personalityzone/wz22.asp
"The Mastermind (INTJ) is very focused as well, but more on an internal vision. They are good at solving problems and like to work on tough intellectual puzzles. They are often led into technical positions such as scientific researcher, design engineer, environmental planner. The developing field of genetics benefits from their intensity as does the field of medicine. In education they are most often found at the college and university level. In the professions, they may be a lawyer, a business analyst, or strategic planner. Some have a strong artistic/creative bent and may become an artist, inventor, or designer. Whatever they do, they do it with intensity. Says Kim, "I am constantly teaching myself something new in order to solve the problems that I encounter. My husband leaves me alone when he sees that I am caught in what he calls my "Thinking Time." I'm unwinding knots even in my sleep."

Personality Quiz - Jan 2011

I decided to take some quiz

Quiz - What's Your Leadership Style?
http://psychology.about.com/library/quiz/bl-leadershipquiz.htm


Leadership Quiz - Your Results

Your results indicate that your leadership style is predominately: Participative

Participative Leadership

Participative leaders accept input from one or more group members when making decisions and solving problems, but the leader retains the final say when choices are made. Group members tend to be encouraged and motivated by this style of leadership. This style of leadership often leads to more effective and accurate decisions, since no leader can be an expert in all areas. Input from group members with specialized knowledge and expertise creates a more complete basis for decision-making.

They even gave me some advice!

Remember, good leaders utilize all three styles depending upon the situation. For example:


•Use an authoritative style if a group member lacks knowledge about a certain procedure.


•Use a participative style with group members who understand the objectives and their role in the task.


•Use a delegative style if the group member knows more than you do about the task.

Happiness

Happiness is:

1. ticking off all the things I need to do or achive from my list
2. achieving my goals
3. see myself getting fitter each day
4. accomplishing something meaningful
5. seeing my family happy and properous
6. going to church
7. having good friends and being with them
8. earning more money and being paid for my worth.
9. earning a certification
10. getting my PMP
11. learning new skills
12. having everyone wanting me to be their project manager
13. to be headhunted for my skills as a project manager
14. to continually exceed people's expectations of me
15. to continually exceed my expectations of myself
16. to find a new love
17. to fall in love again and to be loved
18. to complete reading all those good books that I have been wanting too.
19. Bathing
20. being clean
21. having beautiful soft skin
22. have glowing hair
23. looking and feeling fit and healthy
24. loving God
25. being loved
26. smiling
27. feeling joy in my heart
28. having a loving family
29. loving my mother - she is my rock of Gilbratar
30. knowing that I can do anything
31. knowing that I am succeeding
32. being the best of my trade
33. being good in everything that I do.
34. making money - tons and tons of money
35. having endless of money to spend and to save
36. looking at eyes of my beloved
37. getting whatever i want
38. to be surrounded with truthful friends
39. to be saved
40. to be loved

Driving Thrill

Today I drived again for maybe a hour or so. The joy of driving was thrilling. It is so exhillarating to move a car and go lengths with it. I just tend to forget to move the gear everynow and then and also tend to not know my speed of driving.

I am doing well anyhow. My passenger also told me. Right now I need to focus and remember on when and where to go and what to do next. Also I am this close to buying a new car. I am not sure whether I am happy with the cost of maintaining the car. Maybe I will look for something smaller or cheaper or around my affordable range.

I am so happy! Yeah! It is my dream this year to start driving again and to also own my car. Imagine me with my car - imagine the places that I can go with driving my own car. It is so thrilling and so exhillarating. I want to start driving immediately - quickly so I can go to the malls, hypermarkets and shops alone without anyone by my side - else I can get sis-in-law to accompany me. Think of all the places that I can go - it is so tantalising - the mere thought of getting my own car.

Things That I AM Grateful For

First of all I am very grateful that I have received my broadband back - it has been a 3 day hiatus without my broadband. Secondly, I am happy for the holiday that I had on Jan 20th. One day holiday is better than nothing. Thirdly I am happy that I managed to save some money in the purchase of the omega milk.

I am very happy for the report on my appraisal and the praise for my networking capabilities. I am happy for the opportunity to work on a new project and the fact that many people are asking my help to manage their projects. I am most glad for all the complements that I have been getting and the teamwork that I have been blessed with. I hope that I can work on the new project which is centered on a new building and the relocation of the staffs to there. It would certainly give me a much expected and required exposure to do well again.

Smart Finances

Nowadays I am spending wisely and prudently. I am no longer spending whenever I feel like it. I now buy more things which are cheap and have a longer shelf life. I stock these items so I do not feel the pinch whenever there is a price hike for these items.

I am also prudent in buying things that I need versus things which are not needed. I tell myself that there are some times I need to invest in something nice but not all the time. Instead I should be intelligent enough to know that I have money whenever I need it.

Smart Finances that I have invested so far includes Guardian, shopping for everyday items such as groceries and other essentials. The only thing left right now is that I need to be more prudent with my lunchtime spending. That and somehow I need to work out my travel cost.

O universe give me so good options to grow more money at every opportunity every day so that I may be rich in both heart, soul and wallet.

Power of God

I believe in God. I have always believed in Him. I can feel he is near and he is listening to everything. Although sometimes my mind tells me that he may not grant my wishes... but my heart knows he is there. All my prayers to God is heard as what have happenned today - why this very night, it was proven.

I believe that He walks with me by my side and holds me when I cry or am unhappy. He watches over me with kind and gentle eyes. Always patient with me just like a parent to a child.

I believe in Him!

Happiness :-)

Yesterday, two wonderful things happened. One was that everyone including yours truly is obtaining a salary raise. Two I am released from babysitting or administrative work. Instead, I believe my work is going to be much easier than before with lesser involvement in planning and more of execution. I am not sure whether I can leave planning out of everything so I will leave this free.

Three, I can't wait for the salary hike and bigger increments and promotions. This 2011 - I am looking to score it big with a much higher pay of RM7200 and then by March/April 2011 to get RM8000 per month. The sheer thrill of waiting for the salary raise is so delirious. I am expecting at least RM2000 pay hike. In fact, I am dreaming of this each day of obtaining that much money, of what to do when I get that money and of course... how to build my life.

I also am now inspired to do me over i.e. get myself a makeover starting with losing weight, getting fitter and start running. I just want to blog how many miles I managed to cover.

I also discovered after talking to my former boss, that I want to build my life like a Lego set --- you know acquire wealth, buy properties, have a career that skyrockets, have a family of my own and live happily ever after without ever worrying about anything again. When I spoke to my boss... I realised how much I wanted to have my own department unit and exercising the ability to lead and manage my team.

Getting What I want: More Money

I am getting more money. Woo hoo! I am so happy I can't tell you how much. I have been praying and wanting this for some time. I just want a RM7200 salary this year. I am edging this on.

Then suddenly I remembered that I do not mind if I have gotten RM8000. It would be so sweet. I am now asking for my career to take off. I want to be headhunted for my managing skills in project management, my determination and perseverance to make things become true and for my ambition to become just filthy rich earning RM10000 per day!

I am so happy I could jump. Money is coming to me from known and unknown sources. Money is coming in abundance to me everyday and every time. Every time, I open my eyes, there is an money coming to be an every opportunity. I want to be a money magnet.

Time Traveller's Wife Movie

I got a hold of the Time Traveller's wife movie and a whole bunch of 2010 collection of Essentials and Marie Claire magazine. I am so happy. I just can't wait to watch the movie. I am already down to 100 over pages of the book and have another 135 more pages to go. I just can't wait. Right now, the book is dragging me I feel it yet I want to know what happens and will happen. This reminds me of the Benjamin Button movie although I have not watched it at all.

My brain is screaming procrastinator. I must admit - I am taking 2011 for granted again or shall I say more correctly - I am taking myself for granted again. What did that movie say - you know the one - the Devil wears Prada. It is always treat yourself as good as you treat your boss. I would like to add that when we treat ourselves better, we do better.

Jackets and Cardigans

I am so crazy for the short stylish jackets which are not much of a bolero but those with large collars or with funky cuts.

I so want to get simple and trendy cardigans in bright colours like yellow, green and white. I want those short jackets that I see models and girls wearing from magazines, TV and on the street.

I want for a long time in my life to wear short blouses and not be afraid of how big my thighs are and how does my bum look.

I am trying to look for nice short jackets and keep the weight down. I want to shed enough weight on my lower body and arms and look fit and trim. I just cannot wait to wear all those beautiful clothes I have been wearing.

Books vs Pages

It has just been days ago when I told my friend that quantity is not quality. Of course, I was referring to the number of projects that a Project Manager holds.

In this retrospect, quantity comes in the number of pages in a book that I am currently reading or wanting to read. Sometimes, I noticed that I tend to count more than to just sit back and enjoy the book. On why quantity of pages in a book matters to me - it lets me know whether I have the time to finish it or more appropriately the patience to complete reading the book.

To me, the trauma is always the reading. I seem to be more of a quick and dirty sort - you know the kind who likes to read magazines which in actual reality the kind who loves to flip the pages of the magazine. I rather watch a movie than read the book simply because it is faster. Although book fanatics - can I even call them that admonishes that watching the movie and reading the book is not the same thing. This is something that I can relate because I have always been fascinated with words. To me words means everything and so does action.

So what can a girl do? I read the book - because there are more details that I need to know and then watch the movie or vice versa. What this says about me? I need to stop being too analytical. 

Lord, help me to be more patient in life and not try to do everything at once.

Books I Read in January 2011

I am aiming to read at least 2 books per month. I am actually trying to read 3 books but let's see how interesting these books are and how fast I can turn the pages.

Books I Completed Reading

1. The science of getting rich by Wallace Wattles [completed on 8 Jan 2011]
2. Of Mice And Men by John Steinbeck [completed on 15 Jan 2011]
3. The Prophet by Khalil Gibran [completed on 31 Jan 2011]

Books I am Currently Devouring

1. The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger

NEVERENDING LOVE

I am currently reading the book entitled 'The Time Traveler's Wife' by Audrey Niffenegger. So far I am unable to put this book down. It speaks of neverending love - a love so profund it transcends time. I have always wanted to find love like this. To come home to a loving husband, to feel his arms around me, to have him by my side, to smell his hair and his breath and to bask in knowing that he has eyes only for me and loves me openly and unashamely.

Everybody deserves somebody. This I know is true. There is a somebody for everybody out there. I am going to visualize this.

I just found out that there was a movie on this book. I remember reading it somewhere that there was a movie about this book but neglected to listen to my own intuition. Prejudice is not good for me. I need to awaken my subconsious mind again. I need to have this back in my life again and not doubt my intuition, my feelings and sixth sense.

Things that I AM Grateful for

Last night I was too beat to blog my grateful log. Today I feel much better and is in a better mood.

1. I am grateful for the food that we ate last night.
2. I am grateful for just being alive and well.
3. I am decidingly happy now that I have a dog, I can make an excuse to walk in the day and night. However I am finding myself terribly lazy to walk more than a short distance. Maybe the dog is too pint size for me to feel that I should run and skip along whilst walking the dog. However I am grateful that I have at last own a dog. Now I need to teach the dog some new tricks and to not bark so much.
4. I am happy that I had a tasty sandwich today and ate my share of vegetables and tomatoes. Later for dinner I am going to eat some more of the raw vegetables.
5. I am grateful that I am more prudent now and not simply buying things that I think is cheap.
6. I am exceedingly happy that I did not lose my temper yesterday.