I remember the time when being rebellious was the 'in' thing and that songs like 'Losing My Religion' from REM was super cool and super hot. Well.. I remember now that all these were a past time that I somehow missed out. I find that I am missing out so much in life and that I am missing all the fun time that is in.
There is no use of being serious and not having fun because I did not want to be potrayed as someone cheap and dumb. Right now.. I think I am losing out the fun and suddenly someone cut off the lights and I am leaving alone in the dark but not dancing as what Bruce Springsteen did.
How is it that I am losing out on my mojo and I am not becoming me. All those very things that I avoided is now something I am trying to claim. I want to live a normal life and yet I am not. It is as though I am living a lie. A life which is based on pretences and make believe that everything is ok as long as I do not cake in.
Maybe all the wishful thinking and the wanting is not bringing me somewhere but to a nowhere.
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