Things That I AM GRATEFUL over the Weekend

I am pleased to say that there are many things that I am grateful especially this weekend. Hope to have many weekends like this:

1. I am grateful that my relationship with my brothers and sisters in laws are getting closer day by day. We have much better understanding now.
2. I am grateful that I learned fast as usual and now I am very good at organizing having scoured many websites and read articles. I am also more creative than before.
3. I am extremely grateful that I decided to do many things in my life this year i.e life changing and I am achieving and reaping so many new things.
4. I am glad that I cleaned up over the weekend and organized many things. The house looks much tidier with so many things in their place and are no longer left strewn around.
5. I am amazed with the way that I have been organizing my time with food, decorating, cleaning. I even managed to surf the net. Yeah.. to time management and achieving so many things in a short time.
6. It always makes me happy that I achieve so much in a short time. I love achieving. It motivates me and raises up my good spirits.
7. I am glad that I have been eating healthily i.e eating more salads. I am more glad than ever that mum and dad are eating more leafy vegetables especially raw ones.
8. I am glad that I spending more time with mum and loves chatting with her. I will forgo my surfing time to spend more time with her each day. A 2hour time after work will help much. It will make mum feel more appreciated :-)
9. I am glad that I decorated my room.
10. I am glad that I no longer leave things to chances. Instead I now make my destiny. I will make a choice to organize, to be healthy, to be successful and be more loving.
11. I am glad and eternally grateful that I have a wake-up call to be successful in life.
12. I am now a solid rock...I am growing each day in strength, love and power. 
13. I am just so glad that I am achieving things.
14. In a short time... I managed to change my life around. Instead of being hopeless in organizing. I am now a pro in organizing.
15. I am DOING THINGS that I never thought I could.
16. I am happy to push the electrical charges to my landlord rather than bearing it on my own.
17. I am just glad that I am bring more and more POSITIVE each day and that LIFE is so BEAUTIFUL to waste in away.
18. I am grateful that my eyes are now open to LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!! Which has always been my motto but I never embodied that. Now that I am more matured and more knowledgeable, I am living my life to the fullest.
19. I am excited to get my own car.
20. I am excited to purchase a new home for my mum. I am excited that I will achieve all that I wanted this year! To a new home that I can call my own. To a new house that I own. I will put the home in my mother's name.

Organizing + Decorating My Bedroom

This weekend, I had a swell time, decorating my room. It has been so long since I did something in my room. I got fed up of just leaving things to chance. Everything in life is a choice. So I choose to make my room to become once again the coziest place in the planet for me to unwind and relax.

I am pleased to say that I bedroom is slowly transforming into a cozy place. I have decorated only 1 part of the room so far and somewhere in the middle. I am not done yet. There is much work to do at the study table place. Sorting up papers is not my cup of tea. I detest this. Yet because I brought in a lot of junk from work, I need to sort out these. Next, I will need to store things into boxes or baskets so these will not take so much of space. Once I have done that, I will bring in the chair, pop on a cozy seat/cushion and then work on happily at my study corner. I need to prep myself to start studying my PMP. Already my classmates are getting a head start. I now need to run to catch up with them. Nothing new with that... I am always a good runner and I catch up first :-)

Will let you know what turns up once I finish decorating my bedroom. Now all I need is a good slide door cupboard so I can pack all my clothing there and yahoo I am done!!
Lord, please help me to get a good deal on a closet that will fit all my clothes. If the closet comes in with extras... all the better. More storage space... more things to store :-)

Things That I AM GRATEFUL for Today

Today I have many things to be grateful for:

1. The crick in my neck is subsiding and aches lesser day by day.
2. The pimple on my face has subsided and is almost fading away.
3. I went shopping with my sis-in-law. We are getting much closer in relationship which is what I want to have.
4. I managed to have a long chat with mum after such a long time. It felt good. I feel good about it.
5. I feel happy that I gave mum the Tresor perfume that I love. Although one perfume less in my collection, I believe I will get more perfumes. Besides.. mum deserves a perfume and other good things in life.
6. I love giving mum chocolates. It makes her happy.
7. I love buying things for my mum. It makes her feels appreciated. It is always important  to make my mum happy.
8. I finished reading 1 more book. Yippee! It is now 16 books that I completed. 4 more books to my goal #2 of reading 20 books in half a year. A very good accomplishment.
9. I paid all my monthly expenditures. I wish that the payments out will be lesser each day and year.
10. I managed to get someone to pay for the electrician to repair the faulty switches. Yahoo. More money to be. More safe keeping :-)

Grocery Shopping

Yesterday I went shopping. I was just supposed to buy the Omega milk for my mum but ended out spending RM380 on grocery shopping.  Actually I do not regret the expenditure namely because I think I spent it well by buying goods that will last me 2 months. I am becoming more careful with my money and am spending it in good sense. In fact, I managed to save RM50 by buying some things in advance.

Today I spent RM200 again by purchasing other needed items. I managed to save again around RM20. Once again, I managed to purchase wisely and within means. I am going to carry on purchasing wisely for my home and yet not overspend.

Things That I AM GRATEFUL for Today

Today has be an eventful day with alot of things happening. Initially I did not want to blog at all thinking that I did not have much to rite about. The funny thing is that when one puts their thought process to task, ideas and memories keeps flowing out. Then suddenly I remember all those things that I am grateful about. Here it goes:

1. I got a place to sit in the train today and even got to time and opportunity to do some shuteye.
2. I fell asleep in the bus today on my way home. Once again I managed to make up for those lost time by resting.
3. I managed to read the book that I brought along in my bag :-) I am extremely grateful that I started reading again and is spending my leisure time effectively.
4. My big boss answered my email and gave me what I want. If only I can get that 100% support from all my bosses all the time and from my colleagues... I will be even more than grateful each and every day :-)
5. The new boss remembered my face... even though I forgotten how he looked like having met him only once. Again yippee to the fact that people always remembers me and I always make a good impression on people.
6. My project is progressing well each and every day and I am achieving more each day.
7. I have more and more people and colleagues who are supporting me each day to make my project a big success and as a show of compassion and gratefulness to me. I am always happy when people value my work and for myself as a person.
8. Oh yeah... I am happy that I am saving money. I prudently did not simply buy things although I was very tempted too. I am grateful that I am more careful with my finances and is making good purchases.
9. I am extremely grateful for having good food to eat and that my weight is reducing.
10. I am grateful that I remembered to take my vitamins and the slimming pills.
11. I am happy that I am getting healthy day by day. I plan to increase my stamina and lose the fat in m lower body.
12. I am happy that I am losing fat in my tummy :-) Luckily this is happening as I do not want my pants to keep digging into my tummy.
13. I am grateful that I am safe.
14. I am grateful for the food that is given to me and that my mum cooks for me lovely food each day.
15. I am grateful that the wound on my dad's leg is healing positively.
16. I am delighted that I am achieving more each day in both life, work and spiritually.
17. I am happy that I made the right decision and stuck to my religion. I am eternaly happy that I feel blessed spiritually and emotionally. I feel safe whenever I am in the church and nearer to God. I know that he cares for me and looks out for me.
18. I am happy that I am positive in thoughts and that I can achieve anything that I want by believing in myself and knowing that it will come true.
19. I am grateful for all the materialistic things that I have.
20. I am grateful that I am DOING THINGS. I am ACHIEVING AGAIN.
21. I am happy that I got my MOJO back. I am the top of the game and I am WINNING.
22. Yes.... I am happy that I am blessed.
23. I am happy and grateful that my friends and colleagues cares for my well being, supports and are thoughtful of me.
24. I am happy that I am making small changes in my life that I are benefiting my well being and my mind, soul and emotion.

Things That I AM GRATEFUL for Today

My grateful list:

1. I got a place to sit down in the train today
2. My friend accompanied me to the clinic today. It is good to have good friends who care for me :-)
3. I had other colleagues inviting me for lunch with them. Again it is good to have a good and close network of friends at work.
4. I had a good friend who splurge food on me :-) I had 2x as many chocolates than others. Also another good friend gave me 2 mangoes. Yippee!!!
5. I started reading books again.
6. I committed myself to travel and stop being stingy of my money.
7. I have more people trusting me on their projects. 
8. I am becoming more known on my capacity to lead projects.
9. I almost managed to complete my time-sheet within the same day. I am getting more and more effective with my time management.
10. I am accomplishing things.
11. I am reaping more money.
12. I am saving more money day by day. Money is becoming abundant to me.
13. I am more conscious with my money. I am making good purchases that will last me for some time.
14. I am happy that I AM BEGINNING TO ACHIEVE. My performance at work is soaring. I am limitless. I am believable. I can soar up to the sky :-) these are all happening to me right now.

Before the Age of 40

Before the Age of 40, I should have done the following:

1. Went on a jungle trek
2. Traveled to Philippines, Vietnam and Cambodia
3. Own my own house
4. Own a big car
5. Passed PMP
6. Is a successful career women
7. Ran marathons
8. Got married to the one that I love
9. Made my own Christmas craft
10. Went bungy jumping
11. Learned to surf and swim
12. Went snorkeling and diving in the deep ocean
13. Stopped stopping myself from doing the things that I loved.
14. is a fitness buff and plays sports
15. Have xx many of the closest friends
16. Traveled to Ho Chi Minh city and visited all the historical places.

Things That I want to ACHIEVE before I die

Okay. I am fed up of saying that I always wanted to do this and that and never did that!
Speaking to my best friend reminded me of all those things that we spoke about on how our lives will be when we have grown up... made me realize that I did not achieve anything of those things that I mentioned and ranted about.

How cruel it is to realize that I have not been living my dream? Have not done all those things that I was passionate about when I was younger and still in school? I keep refraining myself from telling my nieces... wait till your older that you will get to do everything that you wanted right now include buying the things that you always wanted.

So here I am... I am determined to do the things that I always wanted.

Live Life to the FULLEST

I treasure this article that I read from this blog entitled: http://lifetofullest.com/things-to-remind-yourself

It reminds me that I am good. That I deserve to live the life that I want and that everybody has that one choice on how they want to live life. I no longer see myself as a log going with the flow of the currents. I see myself as an individual who is in canoe with her own paddles with a vision or goal in her mind. I see myself in the rapids confidently maneuvering myself to my goal and a place to land my canoe. I see myself as a confident, mature, beautiful individual who has achieved everything in life. I see myself going to meet the person I love so much and the person who loves me back. I see myself spirited and with full of joy. I see myself smiling and laughing.. so glad to be in the world surrounded my nature. I see myself so thrilled that I am going back home to my family and my work. I see myself as a successful individual.

Hot Hot Sunday

Sundays is always the day where the sun it at the hottest. This is what makes it difficult to venture out especially when I do not have a car of my own.

Not having a car is starting to bother me. I just feel that I am useless in this way. I do not see any way out without having hard cash in my hands. RM10,000 is not easy to have nor to part.

I think it is time that I stop thinking the mechanics of things and start focusing of just attaining it. When someone thinks too hard on how to cut an elephant to fit it in the fridge, things becomes complicated. I should go back to the time that I was small when everything I think I could have will just materialize out of nowhere. This is what has always happened to me. Things just happen. I just get anything that I want in just like that. It is like a blink of an eye... things just materialize. I just want a car. I want to be able to drive to work, to the mall to the gym to the parks etc. I want to be able to drive out to see my friends, to enjoy a good time together and not worry about anything at all.

I want a car. Not just any car. A silver Honda car - all sleek and long and beautiful.

Goal #5: Love Thyself

I am making this a goal this year because I haven't been paying attention to myself again.
This 2010... I vow to love myself. I vow to take good care of myself. To put me in the front rather than put myself in the backseat which is something I had always done. Also.. I am endeavoring to not take things for granted and to face my fears. Change is something that I need to do and not simply stay in my safe haven. Making excuses not to leave the safe haven is nothing more than cowardice.

This 2010: I shall be strict with myself. Stop procrastinating and to stop delaying. There is nothing that I would get by ignoring the issue and shelving this. The problem/issue/worry/trouble will not go away. This year... I will be strict with myself. I need to focus on matters ahead in my life. Right now... apart from my other goals... my focus is caring for myself. Will start by taking exercise no matter how short and apply lotion each night or day.

I plot to sneak in exercises whenever and wherever I can. A simple 5mins of moving around will get my brain and body to move. Furthermore... my brain can get more alert. It needs all things exercise other than mental stress :-)

To love thyself! This is my goal. Cheers!!!

Organizing Bedroom #!

As part of my organizing phase, I finally concluded that  have to invest in acquiring a closet. This means that I have to take out my money again (sob)! Why can't I just win something? Like a whole new house completely furnished!!! This means that I do not even need to think to spend more money on anything.

Well .. where was I? Airing out my gripe of spending money. Well back to the plan. I need a closet to store all my clothes... esp my jackets so they will not be left outside hanging here and there. Furthermore... it will be much tidies if I have a big closet in which I can keep all my blouses, jackets, pants, jeans, sweaters, shoes and accessories. Imagine... 1 closet to keep all these things rather then let them hang out somewhere in the bedroom... taking up space not to mentioned making my room look like a warehouse! Sob again!

TRAVEL PLANS Headache

Who would ave thought that choosing a place to travel to is much harder than thinking of the date to travel. Phew... since last weekend I had a hard time trying to find some good deals. It turn out that the places that I want to visit does not have an airfare promotion which is so unfair!!

I think I am just going do a chicken out and just leave to the universe to help me find 1 GOOD TRAVEL DEAL! So I can get by butt of here and travel like I was meant to. Come on universe... give me 1 opportunity to fligh overseas...

Things That I AM GRATEFUL Today

Today has been an eventful day where I managed to get something done and some other things that happened that was not so nice such as not being able to get a place to sit in the train.

Despite obtaining a sick leave today, I opted not to go home. Instead I chose to stay at work and chase people for the project deliverables.

However there is always a rainbow somewhere within the day waiting for a chance to shine. As such these are the things that I am grateful for:

1. I am grateful that my colleagues at work takes good care and are considerate of me.
2. I am grateful that I managed to complete my work today.
3. I am happy that I managed to see the doctor today at last and obtained some good advice on caring for my sinus.
4. I am happy today that I ate a good meal 2x in a day.
5. I am grateful for friends who care for me.

Things That I AM GRATEFUL for Today

There are many things to be grateful today. I feel that I continuously being blessed and that all the good things that I had always wanted is happening right now.

1. I am grateful that I had a place to sit in the train and even had a sort nap. Yahoo!
2. I am delighted that my project is getting on a good progress pace.
3. I am excited about the trip that I am about to take to a new country.
4. I am always happy when people care and are thoughtful of me.
5. I am glad that I didn't arrive so late at work ..almost within 9am. I planned to aim to be at work by 8.45am everyday.
6. I am glad that I have started to lose some of my pudginess and is not so round in size.
7. I am glad that I went shopping with a friend yesterday and helped her buy girl's stuff. It has been so long that I went shopping with a girl. I hope to have more of this sort of thing. I miss all the girl talk and shopping around for things.
8. I am glad that mum makes breakfast for me in the mornings. 
9. I am extremely grateful that I started again to go on a "NO CAB" and save transportation money as best as I can.
10. I am happy that my bosses recognizes me for the good work that I put in and rewards me.
11. I am glad for all the gifts that I received from vendors. I have always loved gifts. They are always so lovely.

Things That I AM GRATEFUL Yesterday & Today

I have always like to mention this part. It makes me so glorious. I feel so abundant....like all these showers are blessing are falling on me. Just like the song that I used to love.. still love in church.

"There shall be showers of blessing. This is the promise of love. There shall be seasons refreshing... sent from the heavens above..."

Well... that is how the song goes and this is how I feel. I feel so good and so loved when I blog this grateful log.

This is for today and yesterday. Here it goes:

1. I am grateful that I am getting better in health and my flu is almost gone.
2. I am happy that I am getting better at work.
3. I am happy that things are turning out for the better at work.
4. I am grateful that my bosses understand me and assist in supporting me.
5. I am grateful that my vendors think highly of me and know that I am a very effective PM.
6. I am happy and grateful that my team supports me continuously and without fail.
7. I am glad that all the good things that I wanted to happen, is happening.
8. I just wish that I get promoted to AVP or as a manager. I will this to happen. A higher post and bigger pay for all those efforts and energy I contributed. Yahoo!! This is what I dream.
9. I am happy that I am no longer stress to go on holiday this May 28 and my friend understands my situation.
10. I am very grateful to have understanding and very caring friends. I am happy and glad that they care and are thoughtful of me.
11. I am grateful that LIFE IS GREAT!!!!
12. I am happy that my fridge was delivered on the next day after I paid deposit for.
13. I am happy that my mom and brother settled the difficult issue that I faced in placing the fridge.
14. I am happy that the house looks bigger and brighter now.
15. I am happy that mom has started reorganizing her room. I am happy that things are getting organized at home.
16. I am happy that things are moving my way. I see great things happening that accelerates my future for a better position and that I am marketable.
17. I am happy that I made a wise decision today at work and in the train.
18. I am grateful that I had a place to sit in the train. I hope there will be many more days that I always get a place to sit in the train.

Fridge Has Arrived on May 17

Hurray!! My new fridge arrived like I wanted it to on Monday. What made the event more memorable was that the fridge was delivered to my home in the afternoon itself. The personnel at the shop that I bought the fridge called me at 2.35pm to confirm.  What was the girl supposed to do except to accept. I made all the arrangement with my brother and the fridge arrived at 4pm.

Yesterday was a tiring day with me try to decipher where to place the fridge especially since the fridge was so huge it could not be simply slotted at a place. After much hassle and worrying and frantically trying to placate my heart to not be dishearten, I decided to move around the fridge by myself. Mom of course decided to help me even though she was also very tired. After moving the fridge around and finding that no place is much better, I got tired, sat down ate fruits and talked to mum. Later re-arranged back the things and left it for mum, brother and God to decide. I didn't worry my head anymore... i just surrendered it to the universe.

Again this goes to show is that when you have faith, God does what you asked. Also the universe really listens to your heart's desire. However you may not whisper it aloud, the universe has the ability to listen, know and re-act. I wish all my worries would vanish like that... be it those worries I talk about or the worries that I say in my heart and mind. Away with all these worries and more on abundance of good wealth, health, love and good tidings.

Things I AM GRATEFUL for Yesterday - May 16

Trust me for not being able to log what I am grateful on every weekends. Anyways... there are alot of things that I am grateful for that I always wanted to blog about but was just too lazy. So here we go:

1. I am grateful that my bro and sis in law were very nice and thoughtful to bring me around to shop for a fridge.
2. I am grateful my fever subsided
3. I am grateful that I bought alot of fruits today at a cheap and reasonable price.
4. I am grateful for my mother. I always love her so much and I am always grateful that she is always around for me :-)
5. I am grateful that my other brother was kind to listen to my rants of fridge prices and even went on shopping for a good price for me.
6. I am happy that I am getting closer to my both brothers and our relationship are getting better.
7. I am extremely proud and happy that I am more organized now. 
8. I am grateful for all the websites and advices that I got on organizing things.
9. I am happy that nowadays I am quick to not leave things around and go for closure be it in organizing the house or cleaning up after the minor mess that I made.
10. I am happy that I am making good investments in things.
11. I am happy that for this year I had managed to take account of my expenses and returns.
12. I am happy that I am blessed with more money that comes to my way.
13. I am happy that I remember all the good things that happen and forgo all the bad moments that passed by.
14. I am extremely grateful that I am changing my life around to be a better, more productive, sexy individual :-)
15. I am happy that I am in charge of my life now!
16. Yes... I will look forward for the NOW rather than the past.
17. I am grateful that my relationship with my sis in laws are getting better :-)

Shopping for a fridge Part 2

I went for another round for shopping for a fridge. This time, I was promised RM2150 for the same specs of the fridge - 650L, glass pane + energy saving. The guy said that he could bring it over by Tuesday - May 18th but had to clarify with the Toshiba factory. I hope the old fridge can last that long. I am praying that the universe sends me the new fridge by Monday night. This will settle all my problems and I would not need to worry to much.

Also another thing on worrying.... I am RELEASING all my worries about work and life to the universe. I do not want to worry on anything anymore. It takes too much of my time and energy. Plus I fed up of being a worry wart. Away all these worries and what nots!

Influenza Blues

I was down with flu these past 2 days. What a rotten way to spend a weekend. Anyways... I did a double dose of medicines coz I could not afford being sick through the week. I always have short wires in the brain when I fall sick and next week is a crucial week.

Shopping for a fridge

Today, I went shopping for a fridge somewhere in the afternoon, after taking an hour nap.
The poor fridge at home was/is giving some problems. Yesterday it was emanating a lot of noise which is something it never did before. After 20 years of service, the poor fridge is finally pulling out.

So I had to go out to find out when I could get a new one to replace the faulty one. After 2 hours of shopping, I finally came back to find out that I knew which one that I wanted to buy and that my old fridge was alive again. I have always like the old fridge. In fact I am sorry, it is dying. I plan to have 2 fridges side by side. Don't know whether I will be able to do this.

However, I am excited with the new fridge that I want to get. It is a 65OL Toshiba fridge that comes with a glass door, energy saving and self ice creation technology. It cost a whopping RM2250 - it will certainly make me poorer this month but rich in heart. I am happy that I blew my bonus money on making life better at home and for my family :-)

Things That I AM GRATEFUL for TODAY

Sometimes... it seems hard to find the courage and the energy to think of the things that I am grateful each day. Sometime... it is just a f sort of day. However thankfully there are many things that I can write today and thank the lord for.

1. I got a place to sit in the train again.
2. I am happy that people look up to me.
3. I am happy that I am making sense.
4. I am happy that the cranky lady boss of mine has been agreeing with me on project matters.
5. I am happy that I have people, friends and colleagues who support me in my endeavours.
6. I am happy that my bosses supports me.
7. I am happy that I am getting most things done. 
8. I am happy that I learned to manage my time somewhat haphazardly but near there.
9. I am glad that I no longer pressure or blame myself when something bad happens or when I forget to do something.
10. I am happy that I decided to log all these. Now my heart seems more relief :-)

RELEASING ANGER

There have been so many things that has been going on this week that has been causing me to lose my temper. The temperature in my head keeps rising. I can feel hot blood coursing through me. Usually I am the cold type. Lately... or this year... I feel more angry. I have not been that angry for 2 months now... all these are starting again.

My blood is boiling. Yet, I think, I am not like these. I have for many years eased my anger. I have taught myself to let go, to not talk when I feel angry and to not vent out. For years, I succeeded.  Don't know how in my late 20's I succumbed to being an angry person at home. Then I cooled down. Now I am back to being angry.

Now I decided. No more shall I lose my temper again. I shall recall Confucius teaching.
I RELEASE all my anger. I RELEASE my hot tempered feeling. I RELEASE all those things and information that is plaguing my brain. I RELEASE work related headaches, I RELEASE things in life that is bothering me. I RELEASE all this pain, anger and irritating madness.

May 11: Mum's Birthday

May 11 is my mum's birthday. I wanted to celebrate her birthday grandly but it did not turn out the way I wanted. So many mishaps but finally everything turned out well. I still did not get her the present that I knew she wanted but at least I am able to give her something else.

The good thing is that at least the family was together. This is my wish. I want my family to be together. There should be this close knit relationship with all of us. We should be always there for each other. I am all out to make all of us closer. This is what families should be. This is the same desire I have for my family: to love each other and care for each other as one BIG HAPPY FAMILY!

Things That I AM GRATEFUL Today

Today has been a tiring day. Nevertheless there are somethings that I am grateful that has happened.

1. I got a place to sit in the train today. Woo hoo!
2. I got a cab with my usual fare. 
3. I got the answer that I wanted.. a good answer from my boss
4. I got the whole team in for meeting.
5. I got favorable reply from team that I am a capable PM
6. I got favorable reply from the vendor that I am good leader and PM
7. Overall I have made a good impression that I am very capable.
8. I resolve something today with the help of a good friend :-) Again it pays to have a good network of friends.
9. I ate a nice chocolate eclair today and ice-cream at work.
10. I got my shoe mended in a jiffy and it only cost RM1. Woo Hoo! Luckily I didn't need to go home hopping all the way which would only serve to make me cranky.
11. Again, thank God for good friends, a good mentor and a good boss :-)

Things That I Am Grateful Today

Today alot of good things happened.

1. I got a place to sit in the train again. Happiness.
2. I met a friend on the train today.
3. I bought stuff that mom wanted.
4. I bought my favorite bread.
5. I managed to settle 1 thing with the help of a friend :-) Happiness again. It is so good to have network of friends who can do things for me.
6. I am glad that the girls remember of me when they are going out for lunch. More girl power and more friends for me :-)
7. I am happy things are moving in the project and I am no longer the sacrifice goat but a treasured asset.
8. I am happy that people are coming to acknowledge my expertise in project management and solving things.
9. I am happy and tremendously glad that my colleagues regard me as a good and effective team leader. 
10. I am happy that my leadership skills is appreciated and my capability to resolve matters.
11. Most of all I am glad that things turned out for the good today. There are opportunities everywhere.

Things That I Am Grateful 2day

Phew! Compared to yesterday, today is much better. Though I didn't get to go shopping... there is always something else that is better.. like me not spending my $.

Herein are things that I worked out today that I am grateful:

1. I am grateful that once again, I had a place to sit in the train. Gosh lucky thing also coz the train was packewd sky high
2. I am happy that i have the same understanding with my team
3. I am happy that I get to see the role of a PM at my workplace.
4. I am happy with the way I have been dealing with issues at work. Calm and collected and none at all exhausting.
5. I ate a wonderful rojak and noodles for both lunch and dinner.

Things That I Am Grateful Today

Today is a tough day with many things going into some point of whirlpool syndrome.
However there are some nice things that has happened today.

1. The bus driver at my house was so kind to wait for me when I was 20mins away from the bus stand. This brighten up my day immediately.
2. I didn't need to walk.
3. I managed to haul myself from sleep and went half through half of the morning fully awake.
4. I got a seat in the train in the morning and also a place in the mini bus on the way home. Yahoo!
5. My colleague managed to save me from being caught being lazy at work when the big3x boss was around. Thanks goodness... at that time.. I was becoming very sleepy..
6. I have started achieving new things and for this I am so happy. Achievement = success = self appreciation.

Things That I AM Grateful since May 3 & 4

I was so tired and drained on Monday - May 3 and didn't have the energy to open the laptop and blog. I am still tired today but feel bad if I didn't log in and jot down on all the things that I am grateful for.

3 May

1. Managed to get a different cab but with the same rate I usually pay. I didn't even need to haggle.
2. I bought lovely furniture coverings and had spare to keep.
3. I completed protecting all the dining table chairs.
4. I bought a nice cardboard in which I plan to build my physical vision board.
5. I bought some new files for mum so she can start organizing her recipes.

4 May

1. I had a place to sit in the train today and managed to send out 2 emails.
2. My meeting today progressed well and done.
3. Response from the boss is not so good but at least he responded that he is looking into it. I hope that he will get back soon. In fact I will let the universe worry about this.
4. I stayed back late today and managed to catch the van.
5. Not happy that I had to take a cab but at least I managed to get my usual cab.
6. I ate an expensive but tasteful sandwich and ate healthy tuna salad which I shared with a friend.
7. I am delighted that even though I left my hp at my drawer at work, no one knew about it and thus it was safe.

Things that I AM GRATEFUL TODAY

I just could not wait to write this:

1. I cleaned up my room - halfway but still did
2. I decorated the bathroom :-) something that I have been aiming to do but couldn't
3. I went online and found so many ideas of decoration. I am now inspired to decorate my own.
4. I plan to create a love corner. I have always liked that people took care of me and always liked and cared for me. I want these things to happen again like before when I was always given the 1st priority for everything. 
5. De-cluttering and releasing negativity has put me on a POSITIVITY path. I feel good. I feel happiness radiating in me. I FEEL JOY!!!

I got to go now... have to get ready for church. Cya.

The Difference of HAVING and WANTING

My aspirations this May is to HAVE NEW and COOL things. I aspire to get all these things below without me spending dime me. How? I dunno. Heaven knows. The universe will just give me like I always been given. I will just have these:

1. LAPTOP bag. Ha. This is one thing that I have been looking high and low for. I am so crazy for the HP laptop bag but just any laptop bag will do as long as it is top quality.
2. I gotta have a laptop. Oh.. I so want this. I just want to have something on my own rather than my work laptop that I had used for my personal stuff.
3. I have new and exciting friends
4. I AM GOING on trip(s).
5. I have FREE meals here and there.
6. I have MORE $$$$$$$$$$ coming in to my account.
7. I have money just coming to me.
8. I have  new things. Yes I am materialistic.
9. I have  a car

Expanded Vision Board

Ha. I am pleased with myself. I managed to create a vision board as I thought I would. This is a much larger vision board then the other one that I earlier created. I decided to add in other things that I want in my life such as stability of assets such as my own house, my own car and abundance of prosperity, love, joy and peace. Shown below is the expanded version of my vision board. Tada!!

MY Vision Board

This is my vision board. It holds all my aspirations, needs and wants. This is the most public display of my affection and reveals the real person whom I am.

RELEASING NEGATIVITY

I realized that all these years, I have put the stops on my progress mentally by telling myself that I don't want this, I cannot be bothered, why care? I need to put myself in the background etc ...

At the same time.. life has been good and keeps giving me opportunities and I keep questioning why me and I failed to see what the universe is doing for me. So in turn, I got more work which was what I didn't want simply because the pay remained the same. If I was paid for all my contribution and hard work, this will motivate me to do better. However,  because I was hell bent to be in the shadow... at times... the best things that I do unfailingly does not get recognize.

To be fair.. luckily life i.e the universe still kept the spotlight on me because that was all I thought off. I kept questioning on how come the spotlight was on me and why is there always a spotlight on me? Luckily is it this same thinking that saved me from being not seen by my peers, family, friends and bosses. The fact that I have 'given in' to the idea that I am always different and this is the reason why people always tend to take notice me, saved me from being left out.

So now I know all these stupid thoughts that could get me in the wrong sort of trouble... I shall RELEASE ALL MY NEGATIVITY OUT FROM ME.

Release is a new word that I learned from Christine Kane's blog. I release my life negativity, my worried thoughts, my need to keep saving people and the mental clutter in my life. I RELEASE ALL THESE NEGATIVITY! OUT these goes!!! SHOO!!

NEW THINGS TO DO EVERY MONTH

There are many To-Do lists that everyone aspires to work on each day or does. To me... I aspire as always to not be square and form habits that shows that I am a boxed in discipline person. Not that disciplined people are so square but they are so good and principled and I think these values takes too much energy and effort. Sigh!!! More signs to change my mind.

Where was I again? Oh yes.. things to do in each month. I got this idea from a lady who ran a creative blog and she created a list of creative things to achieve in each month. Pretty interesting person with a pretty inspiring blog. Next time, I will remember to make a note of the blogs I read so I can list them here and track them whenever the need arise to do so.

However back to where I was: 8 Months Goals starting from May 2010:

1. May - Eat Healthily Month
2. June - Goals Achievement Month - 1/2 yearly Pre-assessment
3. July - Take Short Holidays
4. Aug - Weighing in the Weight Month. I better lose weight!
5. Sept - Involve/indulge in sports
6. Oct -  TAKE PMP
7. Nov - Marathon
8. Dec - TRAVEL

So how about this? Seems to be achievable. Now these will move my butt to start doing something to achieve all those goals I mentioned. I like it that I have 30 days in a month to start planning and starting achieving.

Having A LIFE @ 30 DAYS OF DIFFERENCE

I was inspired when I read steve pavlina's 30 days challenge. Most so when I read other blogs on doing something different from 30 days. Wow.. I said to myself... isn't this idea fantastic?
Doing something different for 30 days = doing something different in my life. Rather than saying that I am bogged down with work and complexity that I cannot have a life. I realized that I COULD HAVE A LIFE!

Thus I couldn't resist jumping at this suggestion/advice/challenge ... whatever you want to call it. How could I not! It sounded do-able :-)

So these are things that I DID (grin) :

1. I started blogging again.
2. I carried my broadband to work everyday so that in the event that I became bored whilst traveling on the train or bus, I could catch up with some emails or work to do.
3. I started reading again.
4. I started counting the number of books and these increased my motivation to read more.
5. I started to utilize MSN messenger to get in touch with my friends. Well... even though I just asked from 1 friend- it is a start.
6. I started becoming competitive at my PMP training. I now read more.
7. I started printing out PMP questions that I could do and work on whilst I was on the train or bus.
8. I started caring for myself and went on a shopping spree. I no longer blame myself for ruining my shoes with my supposedly heavy weight and taking long walks. Instead I invested in buying a flat slipper to do this and in turn saved my feet from hurting too much. 
9. I started caring for my feet. I massage them more and even give them plenty of attention when I bathe.
10. I no longer blame myself when I miss the bus and have to take a cab instead.
11. I have set my mind that I can do anything and this is working.
12. I make myself to write down.. things that I am grateful each day. This has in turn allowed me to look at the positive side of life i.e opportunities are always there at every corner.

In short, there have been so many things that I started doing. Maybe I am not so discipline in working out a daily/monthly goal. I guess I will start working on this list right now.

REFLECTIONS on WORDS THAT INSPIRE

Inspiring words:

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
but that we are powerful beyond measure.

                                       [-Marianne Williamson]

Affirmations

I am invincible and I can do anything I put my mind in.
There is nothing stopping me.
I am limitless. I am endless.
I am broadening my horizons :-)
I am sexy
I am fun. I am fun to be with
I am influential
I am a great motivator
and I live my day, each of my day to the fullest.
I never set a limit to what I can do.
What I am capable in doing is equivalent to SUCCESS!

Vision Board

I plan to create my vision board as a way to channel my energies and wants to reality. There are so many things that I want to do but didn't simply because I used to believe that I didn't have much time and I couldn't have the time !

Now... I know. I believe in myself. I know that I can do so many things in a short time and there is nothing short of unbelievable in me. To think that in some ways that I am like my mother after all and that I am an energizer bunny in my way. Not in cooking like mom  or maintaining the household. I am an energizer bunny, in getting things done.

I plan to create the vision board with whatever I have... paper cuttings, books.. glue and a board. I am already planning the shade in mind.. the things that I want to put in.

Diets and Self Discipline

Yesterday, I went out for a girl's only lunch and I enjoyed myself tremendously. Not only I managed to eat good food with lots of vegetables, I found out how everyone is so very discipline about their diets except for yours truly.

From Siva who exercise at 6am before coming over to training, to Mala who stopped eating rice for 2 weeks, to Shant who lost more than 10kg and from Sham who lost 20 pounds in 8 months before her wedding eating only fruits for breakfast, no sugar, water only, and oats in the night. These are all signs and symptoms on how people are moving in their live with the simple goal to be healthy. Oh how discipline are they in the quest to be healthy and lose weight and here am I resolving and yet not committing myself to lose weight. Siva is so much fitter and stronger now that he lost 20kgs in weight. Yikes... and what am I doing? I am just wishing and wanting but not doing anything about this. I realized that I need to be stern with myself and start focusing on goals. Nothing can be attained without focusing on the goal itself!!

Yes... I need to come off my safe mode and be committed to myself. It has been too long that I forgo myself and maintain "anything goes concept, what to do" . Now, all these stupid thinking and pretenses must stop!

I resolve to care for myself. To love myself as I would do the same for others. To put my priorities in line and aim for the best. I need to stop thinking about other people and their feelings. I need to put myself at the top. Yes... I am good at what I do but I have to stop making excuses for people and remove myself from the top just because I didn't want to hurt people's feelings.

Things That I Am GRATEFUL today

Am sleepy but this is important to me as I can track my progress.

1.  I met a good friend of mine today. We managed to talk about our future as 2 separate individuals.
2. I got a cab back home today with RM8 as a charge rather than RM10 which I thought he would charge me.
3. I didn't send any email in anger.
4. I got a place to sit in the train today. Yahoo. This is after 2 days of standing for an hour before I reached my destination.
5. I filed up my tax payment.
6. I turned out I could get some money returned to be bcoz of overtaxed.
7. Met a new friend.
8. Managed to get to eat some healthy veges - all four of them. 
9. Managed to taste a pesto pasta dish that I wanted to try all this while.
10. Yesterday, ate dinner for free.
11. Within this month, had 1 free lunch and 1 dinner. Hope that is more to go. Yes to free lunches.
12. Drank more water than coffee this week.
13. Found out that my investment is working.
14. Met my agent and sign off some forms for investment contra. Good thing is that she does more for my $ and that I do not need to meet up with her during the weekends.
15. Had a good chat with my ex boss who gave some advice on how to manage.