Since yesterday I was surprised. I scoured the websites to find some inspiration on what to dress on Christmas day. Instead, I saw scores and scores of websites offering advice on what to wear. If only they would show pictures instead of just showing text, it would have made better sense. After awhile, thinking that I am not getting anywhere I stumbled on some plus size women's website. To tell you the truth, I have been in denial about my weight gain and seeing these women dressing up like all fashionista does..it makes me wonder. I am truly amazed with their dress style and their unabashed and upbeat attitude towards their weight. It does not stop them from looking good.
Thus, I figured that instead of just grabbing whatever that I feel is good never mind that I need to squeeze in them.. thinking I would feel better, I realised that I was living in a fantasy world. I am ashamed with my squared thoughts. I should not condemn myself too much and instead should look up for clothes my size without feeling insecure.
With this thinking, imagine my surprise when I found so many beautiful and affordable clothes yesterday that I figured I could wear on Christmas day. Also I am feeling brave to try out new things and clothes.. especially those type of clothes I used to think that I would not look good on.
I decided today for my birthday - to wear that blouse that I have been saving for 5 years. I also had a pedicure and went for eyebrow and upper lip threading. I now look much fuzz free and I hope that it will stay like that till Christmas or at least until new year. Also I decided to eat more of salad and boiled/broiled protein/vege this week so at least my tummy pouch will not show so much and I could fit myself in that pants that I have been saving for the whole year! Lord, that and I have to trim my butt and thighs and get rid of the saddlebags at my waist. A great feat! I shall persevere by going out shopping so I will not think so much of food.
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