Committment

Today I changed my wallpaper yet again to reflect a new inspiration : commitment
Years ago the word commitment left a sour note in my mouth. I told people that i could not commit... not to a man... not to my own self I mouthed silently to myself.

As I said.. this year... it is all about shedding my cloak of fear, of staying hidden or being in the shadows. This year... I need to explore new things for the good of my soul... to pacify this feeling of emptiness and incompleteness in my life. This year... like a basketball player... I want to score few goals. I want to able to complete the few things that I have started and attempted to start but never end. 18 years is a very long time to have not complete certain things. Talk about procrastinating but 18 years is far to long a time to not have done anything to accomplished what my soul years: knowledge and lifetime of information in my hands. To have eternal bliss, to always be happy and have happiness reign in me, to be rich and beautiful, to have guys falling at my feet and to accomplish so much.

I need to take up running again and acquire my stamina. I need to cross boundaries and learn new things. I need to be myself back again. I am she. I am her. I will be.