Strenght Within Myself

Yesterday and today also... I was/am in excruciating pain. My eyes aches... my face has swelled as well as my nose... and the worst pain of all is the ache in my ear and throat. I did not wanted to go to work. Most importantly, I did not want to welcome the pain or wallow in the pain if I was at home. I had so many things to do at work. I did not want to play victim. Didn't this what Robin Sharma say. Stop playing the victim. Playing a victim is an  infectious disease.

Hence... I went to work only to be hit with the same excuciating pain only at a higher tempo. I also ended up in a long meeting.. fortunately I did not lose my temper but lost it when I came out of the meeting. I have always disliked inactivity. Going out for lunch proved to be a better idea. It lessened the pain... I was even happy... however bliss sometimes tends to be short...

After awhile. it... the pain came back with a vengeance. Thus I resorted to medicine - Actifast.

It is between the medicine and the fact that I had to do something that one of my team mate wanted... I forgot the pain..

I went on completing tasks after task and left my office only at 6.00pm. Because the usual van did not come... I only ended leaving the workplace after drinks with a friend at 6.30pm. Because it rained... I came back home soaking wet at 8.50pm.. I was alive I tell you... I even managed to sit up until 10.30pm after the movie ended and then only went to bed. Even then I could not sleep.

However.. cast aside all these lengthy talks-  I always believed that I always have strength in me to go further that I am right now... and that I am strong to forgo the pain and also the length of journey by just moving on relenteless. The whole idea is to forget the pain and concentrate on what is on hand.

I am what I am. See where it got me... one morning I was full of pain.. I went to work and managed to complete all my work, resolve matters at hand, fulfilled my project obligations, responsibilities and requirements and ACHIEVED. How wonderful the word ACHIEVE is to me...

I heard this on Sharnma's podast:
Run Your Own Race - be successful on your own terms. Live and find success on your own terms and not on othrs. How true what he says. I have always done the same thing. Also I never want to play a victim. I am strong. I am independent. I am lucky and I always get what I want.